"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Sunday, June 06, 2010


I had a revelation last night while I was under the anointing of the Holy Spirit. He impressed upon me as plain as day that I need to "trust" Him before I can feel and experience His "full" love. Wow--

Emphases on the word, "full."

I say that because, I also felt impressed upon me that I do in fact experience His love, but I do not know how to recognize it as such because of remaining shame issues.

Now that is a powerful revelation for me!

Here all the while I have been praying and seeking earnestly for Him to reveal His love to me. Not even thinking I needed to trust Him first with healing my pain in order to receive the fullness.

Sure, right away my feeble mind went to analyzing that "oh no this cannot be right. Other people can feel God's love before they trust Him, you are wrong, you will never experience this occurrence."

Dang, the devil will not give me a break. Right away the lies are thrown my way. But, I am not claiming them. I know I felt what I did.

I am learning there is no formula to healing. Sure, maybe others can indeed feel God's "full" love first, but in my case I need to trust first. Makes sense, since I have always struggled with trust issues due to my past.

In the days, weeks, months ahead, however long it takes, my prayer will include trusting my Lord and Savior. . . . . fully.


  1. Beautiful picture and a beautiful revelation.


  2. that is truly insightful...

  3. ah, in order to experience anything or anyone fully we have to trust...otherwise our own doubt and fear cloud our view of all they do. i do this with God at times, b/c i dont understand His ways as i have my own idea on ho it should be...a great revelation esp in light of your recent and upcoming challenges...

  4. Covering you in prayer JBR ~
    Hugs, Ella

  5. What a great post. Truly there are no formulas. I had/have trust issues, too. But my trust grows as I give God little things and first, then bigger things. He's never let me down. Hugs to you.

  6. Happy Sunday, JBR!

  7. God's revelations to us are so beautiful and so specific to us--and if we receive what He tells us about us, we move forward in self-knowledge and knowledge of Him.
    Hugs and blessings to you as you continue to heal and learn about Him!!

  8. Trust is one of the hardest things for us to learn to do. It's also one of the most powerful. It comes in little steps, I think, and perhaps even a lifelong process.

    I also stopped by to say good-bye. I've posted about it on my blog and you've been a part of my online life so I wanted to take leave here as well. Know that you will be in my heart and prayers.

  9. JBR,
    Jesus asks this of me, too. Complete trust. I struggle with this as I have not trusted much in my life. I KNOW that I can trust Jesus but I think part of me still fears the complete "letting go" that is involved with this. Thanks for sharing your insight on this. I will pray for this too!

  10. Beautiful post. The important thing to remember is that God loves us fully, whether we trust or not. But when we do NOT trust, then we resist some of that love and do not let that love in. I myself am still a work in progress when it comes to trusting. Hugs and blessings!

  11. Say yes to trust! Thanks so much for your visit and comment..Take good care of your sweet lil ole self!

  12. However your breakthrough happens JBR its of divine appointment. God Bless.

  13. Blessings & GREAT REVELATION sister! Thank You Holy Spirit for this wonderful word and breakthrough, now help my sister to trust in Your Full Love! I believe fully that God loves you but you need to accept & know and that comes with TRUST & being willing to open up as you have and are doing...under SHEKINAH glory! Love this since I heard that you were listening & praying along with IHOP!!! POWER, JBR!!! PRAISE GOD! MAY YOU RECEIVE MORE!!! LOVE this beautiful innocent child that represents you and coming to faith and trust of walking out on the water as peter did with Jesus! Wonderful revelation! Praying & trusting as I believe for YOU!


  14. Trust can be so difficult for me also. Trusting that God is taking care of me even though I sometimes feel insignificant. Trusting that God will come through on His promises to me. Trusting that the words I hear from God are true even when Satan tries to convince me otherwise.

    Thanks for such a powerful post. I will be meditating on the word, trust, for a while.

  15. Indeed, there is no "formula" for healing, is there? Keep being real! I love the picture you chose for the post. I can almost feel the sand between my toes!

  16. Wow. What a testament to how hard you are working to free yourself. I had a similar revelation a couple of weeks ago and I understand how hard it is to take that and put it into action. Full trust is difficult. And you are right.. there is no formula for that.

  17. Glad u see the light of trust...
    let it go,
    let it be,
    feel free,
    love for you, he, and we...

    have fun!

  18. Isn't it cool how the Lord is opening our eyes and revealing the blockages! Once God shines his light on the darkness, it has to go!!! Praise the Lord.

  19. There is a line in an old, old song I used to sing to my kids when I was battling with fear during their night wakings that goes "oh for grace to trust you more." I've prayed that SO many times through the years....and am asking that same grace for you to trust Him more, too.
    Even trusting God is a gift from His hands....

  20. It's great to see how God is showing you deeper revelations in order to take into a deeper walk with Him. I can see how full trust would be key.

  21. stuck-in-the-middleJune 07, 2010

    Wonderful discovery JBR. Hang in there.

  22. Sweetie what a delight to know what the Lord requires individually. Keep your head up look to the heavens he'll reveal to you as you go along. Your post has encouraged me today.

  23. You are doing a very hard job here. I had and still do struggle with trust. Yet as your God of your understanding actually shall love unconditionally I wonder why you have to trust first.... before you can be loved fully? TBH if someone I have a love relation with would imply such conditions or vice versa, I would wonder about love, full love, unconditional love. I ahve a critical and analytical mind and I wont deny that anymore. Yet I hope I do not offend as this wouldnt be my intention.

  24. JBR, however much you trust is however much your heart is open. That is true for all of us. As an incest survivor, I had to learn to trust myself and God both. Until I trusted myself, I couldn't trust God or anybody else. Same with love. Until I loved myself, I couldn't love God or anyone else. Until I loved myself, I didn't think that I deserved God's Love. Thank you for your continuing love and support.

  25. People may think that they trust Him, but in reality really don't know what that means experientially...that is where it counts. Trusting yourself, others, and God always go along with love. The more you love and the more you trust. The more you trust the more you love. Part of the same journey, just different steps.

    I feel like I just need to say that the picture at the beginning of your post immediately made me burst into tears. I'm not sure why. I wonder how old she is?

  26. Hey girl,

    Sorry I've been away for so long! This blog made me want to cry. I definatly had to trust God before he gave me His Love. I mean He always loved me. I believed before the world was created He had my name picked out. By the way Amanda means "Beloved." And you know what He had your name picked out too and you should see what it means. However, for me to REALLY feel in my heart what God was doing all along I had to trust Him fully. It was hard so I know where your coming from. I will pray every day for you! When I am at a healing service, be it Catholic or Protsant (can't spell, so sad) I can feel God's love even more. It doesn't matter the faith just as long as it's Christian. It's like feeling a little glimpse of Heaven right here on earth and I will pray for you to feel that too. Just know that God is ready and waiting! He has all the Time in the world.

    Hugs my sister in Christ,