"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Tuesday, August 31, 2010


I have noticed I have become more confident and direct with people. The expression on some people's faces of astonishment when I speak to them is amazing now. Thank You Lord!

Even though little JBR still tends to fear the possibility of being wrong, criticized, judged and even rejected (ouch), risk taking is part of recovery.

Some days will be much easier than others. Some days the JBR's will step out boldly and some days the JBR's will fall flat on their faces. But, they will be there for one another when that does happen.

Big JBR is learning to comfort and pick the little one up and dust her off and not become as angry despite the self-blaming issues still.

Risk taking is a challenge. For me personally, I see it to be beneficial. I need to break out of some strongholds that captivated me for years because of some deep fears. God is taking me one step at a time. I guess you could say tackling the easy ones first. That is if there is an easy one. I am not going to rush Him. I know what also lies ahead for me and Him in tackling one of my biggest fears from being sexually abused. But that I feel is down the line a bit.

All part of risk taking.


  1. JBR you're right in letting God have and be in control what you need at the moment. The tougher issues will come later. You're doing a fantastic job in your recovery. I see the strength daily in your posts.
    Glad you chose this outlet to share your experiences with us here. Not only to encourage yourself but others. You're a God send. God Bless.

  2. You are doing the right things my friend.

  3. all in His time...i am glad you have taken the risk to be so honest about your life and sharing all you have with us...

  4. “The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing, and becomes nothing. He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn and feel and change and grow and love and live.”

  5. I love what anon above me said. So true. And I love this post. I am not anywhere near as patient with the process as you seem to be. I want God to hurry up already and get finished changing me! I have a woman to become already! But of course His ways are higher than mine. And I suspect we both know I am not ready for more than I am already handling :)

    Thanks for your honesty. It is a refreshing find.

  6. stuck-in-the-middleAugust 31, 2010

    Your doing great JBR. Hang in there.

  7. Thank you all for your encouraging comments. TabithaBird, patience is not a great virtue of mine. I guess I could say I have released my grip on holding onto some things. Only way in order for the Lord to do His mighty work!

  8. Sweetie I ve been away. Have some catching up to do on your blog. Seems your still heading in the right direction with your healing. Keep depending on Gods guidance. He will get you there.

  9. This scripture came to mind as I read your post this morning. "By little and little I will drive them out from before thee, until thou be increased, and inherit the land." Exodus 23:30 (ASV) Your testimony is a great encouragement.

  10. I think you're right-- learning to take risks involves small steps in that direction. You're doing great, JBR.

    Wishing you well,

  11. One day at a time,step by step,he will guide you.

  12. JBR, I am so proud of you for the courage it takes to reveal and find yourself. You are an inspiration to me. Live in love and peace.

    What an incredible journey you are on.

  13. That sounds like great progress. It's okay to be strong and stand up for yourself. God made you perfect.

  14. way to be risky and brave. i find that very
    hard to do. blessings on this courageous

  15. Sexual abuse leaves many scars. Taking risks is very hard. Sounds like you are doing a good job! God is on your side. Take care.

  16. It's good that it is only one step at a time because each step is a risk. I think it's great that you are taking those steps.

  17. Just grinning and cheering you on!
    With love,