"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Saturday, August 14, 2010


"Recovery from childhood trauma involves owning the experiences we have disowned. It includes owning parts of ourselves that we continue to want to push away. This is a painful process because it means that we will need to embrace painful realities. Everything in us (and often around us) tells us that this is not the right path to take. But it is always truth, no matter how painful, that frees us. Embracing our life experiences and their ongoing impact on us is the path to freedom and wholeness." (Juanita Ryan)

I can say that what I have since regained back of myself while on my journey to freedom has been worth it. And yes, it has been extremely painful at times looking and facing my fears, strongholds, shame, guilt and other painful areas of my past. But, in the end what I have gained back thus far is totally worth the pain.


  1. i am glad you have that perspective....
    hope you have a wonderful weekend!

  2. Great words. Your attitude changed so much since i came here first. You are spectacular!

  3. I can vouch for that. Life hasn't been a bowl of cherries for me either. But since counseling and learning more about myself and setting up defenses, I'm a much better person . Came across your blog in the AAA index.

  4. I meant to say AA not AAA.

  5. JBR you've come a long way. Your attitude has changed for the positive. Your willingness and focus has always been straightforth. You never cease to amaze me. God Bless.

  6. I'm glad you feel that way-- it makes it so much easier to press on, you know?


    Wishing you well,

  7. HI JBR-

    Owning and honoring and loving all of my truths has freed me so much. My childhood traumas have become sources of great strength. If I did not take the journey to wholeness I could never know that. And yes, it was, is painful to embrace but it is "me" all of it. I so understand how hard you are working to become "one" and free. ALl my support and prayers are with you.

    Love Gail
    peace and hope.....

  8. I whole heartedly agree and it takes perserverance!!!

  9. I too see a positive attitude shining from your words. I am so proud of and happy for you! Sorry I haven't been around much, your words do offer a bit of peace for me.

    Take care! *hugs* <3

  10. Freedom of any kind only comes through pain and sacrifice...well done, JBR....

  11. I think that owning the trauma is one of the hardest parts of recovery. I struggle with this daily. You give me hope that it can be done:) Thank you!

  12. JBR:

    Why do I feel like a 'proud parent'?? I think it's because I have seen you head straight INTO all the past pain, and deal with it head on, and know that God is holding you the whole way. It's what each one of us must do, no matter where we are or have been... and you are doing it so well!!


  13. oh yep. I hear ya. I am still in the process of all that. I have come a long way and still have a little way to go. hugs to you.

  14. Very inspring and empowering!!! You are more than a conqueror. Blessings to you!!!

  15. This is so true. Every time I go through a valley I think that I'll never be able to get past the pain. That it will always feel that horrible. Then I turn to God for the strength to keep going and end up on the top of the highest mountain yet. It is so worth the pain to know that you made it back up the mountain.