"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Wednesday, November 03, 2010


Can recovery be fun? I don't think so, some of you may utter.

I have felt that same way as well. I hated my early days of recovery. Facing my fears that had so much emotional pain, confusion, hopelessness, anger, tears. Having all my emotional garbage dug up from all those years of being dormant was not fun at all in order to face my past!! I do not wish that on anyone......

BUT, I am discovering as I am regaining back what was stolen from me as a child from abuse and neglect, the playfulness is emerging once again in little JBR.

Sure, I have and still have to face fears. Deal with some more emotional garbage. Shame and guilt being among the top two. It will take time still. But it will certainly be well worth the pain to gain freedom!

I like what the devotional says, "Recovery teaches us to enjoy life. Our Creator has concocted a world of many pleasures and delights to play in." That statement alone gets me excited. Thank you Lord for this hope.

I am learning to play again. My Spirit is becoming more free as I heal. Are you willing also to play again? To find your lost child?

Our relationship with our God is not all solemnness. Facing the pains and guilts and grief's of our codependent relationships and our addictions might lead us to think recovery is only serious business. Not so!

This program liberates us from the heaviness by facing it. We are not meant to stay stuck there. Recovery teaches us to enjoy life. Our Creator has concocted a world of many pleasures and delights to play in. As we progress in our recovery we learn to let our hair down and play. Some of us have become more able to enjoy good-natured roughhousing with our children. Maybe we have become more free to joke and banter with friends. Our spiritual lives grow with good-natured fun.

I am grateful for the child who still lives in me. He keeps alive my delight in the world.

Hazelden Foundation


  1. Love this.....Recovery teaches us to enjoy life!

    I laugh alot more now that I am in recovery. People always commented when I was younger that I was "so serious". I think I was very sad and serious. Having to deal with adult problems at such a young age. I am going to make up for it now. I want to live and laugh as much as I can.


  2. I didn't think I would ever smile, but I am beginning to. Recovery is work, but indeed time well spent. It learning so much about little Wanda and want to give her the chance to laugh and play that she never had so long ago. God bless you through your journey.

  3. Laughter is such great medicine.

  4. I'm glad you are finding these wonderful moments in your journey, JBR. I was thinking today about how many children's hearts are broken in the world through abuse and the lack of love. There is no doubt in my mind that our Lord has a deep longing to heal broken hearts and restore them to their previous beauty. We can trust Him completely. Great post!

  5. JBR wonderful post. Have been off the internet waves for the past few weeks. Problems at home. God Bless.

  6. you know...i think that through recovery life can be a whole lot more fun...and there are moments it is not but...

  7. Great post! I wonder sometimes how much I miss when I don't enjoy life and take time to play. Jesus says to come to Him like little children, sounds like an invitation to enjoy life. :D

  8. Make yourself a promise....I am happy. I love my life. I love me. I love who I am. I am wonderful. Sometimes I chant these things to myself over and over again. Remember, what we think is what we become. Say, I AM Happy...not I want to be happy. Act as if you already are. We are here to be happy and to live in gratitude. Leave that nasty past behind!!!!!!!! Yeah for you and always move forward with love and gratitude....Cynthia

  9. Oh sweetie,
    fun and play will be RESTORED
    back to you over and over
    ....you'll be more youthful and
    childlike in your later years
    ...and enjoy life more
    ...than you did as a child.
    You're on a journey to agelessness
    and it's looking more and more
    beautiful on you!
    P.S. Thanks for my hug:)

  10. Experience and enjoy the moments WHEN you FEEL. Recovery comes slowly and is never absolute, not for a long while until pain fades.

    Praying for your journey too.

  11. It is important to keep our inner child alive and playing!


  12. fun? not exactly a word i'd have linked to recovery. but yes. the fun does come. with time. nice new slant this ole subject...

  13. Little JJBR coming out to play is the best news I've heard from you in long. :) :)