"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010


Since the beginning of November to now my hunger for God has increased. Many of the church activities that I would be normally attending to be filled and replenish by His Spirit were now closing for the holidays. I have been feeling very dry and more depressed than normal these last 60 days. Feel like a fish out of water, gasping for my last breath. Satan took every opportunity to try and destroy my will. I have had some really rough days. Having the holidays, and cooler weather did not help matters any for me with memories and desires gone by.

Still I was able to find through my pain the opportunity to actually listen to what God wanted to impress on my heart for the New Year. I was open. The time alone with Him, the heart ache and pain He and I discussed did not go unnoticed as well.

The new year could promise to be the best for me.

God has placed a very special opportunity and impressed on my heart to take advantage of. Do not know the full details. Although one thing was made clear, He requires the breaking of my will even more and stepping out into the unknown. Say what? There will be sacrifices, hurts (shame, guilt), tears and even rejection. Oh Lord!! It will be like trusting God like I have never ever done before!!! I will be totally relying on His strength.

The new year will be a BIG stretch for me.

Growing pains into a better, more confident and worthy person. Not relying on what man thinks and not partaking in gossip. I really want to choose to honor God.

Right now it sounds like it is "all about me," which it is. But, until I can learn to like then love myself, I then will be able to reach out to others. Right now I feel the Lord has to deal with me first.

I will undoubtedly be gripping the hand of my Savior much harder than ever! Glad He is God. If it were anyone else, I would break every bone in their hand.


  1. Remember the story of the woman who touched His robe? Sometmes that seems like all I would need to get betterl Happy New Year!


  2. God is able to see us through the most difficult times. You hang in there JBR.

  3. Yes the new Year, with God's help. I hope it is better for all!

  4. Amen! Trusting God is ALWAYS the best path to take :-)

    Happy New Year from Southern California. No snow here but a lot of rain storms and mud slides!

    I hope you and your family had a Wonderful Christmas Celebration.

    God Bless You, ~Ron

  5. The awesome truth is it is His hold that saves you. That saves us. He never lets go...May your new year be filled with His awesome blessings. Happy New Year JBR!

  6. Praying for you in the new year JBR. I am so looking forward to seeing where the Lord wants to take you.

    God bless you in this season of growth.

  7. I'm praying for you, that this new year will bring abundant blessings along with healing and growth.

    Happy New Year, sweet one! God has you safely in the palm of His hand.

  8. I too have to take hold and grip the hand of our Lord Jesus Christ like never before, because if I don't I will fall!!!

    God's Blessings to you JBR!!!


  9. I think God has a many wonderful plans for the new year, but, yes, we do need to break in compliance to His will!

    I'm realizing how everlasting our words are, so I'm also trying to curb what I say and not consume gossip, especially mass media gossip!

    I pray that God shows His best through you in 2011.


  11. JBR may the blessings of 2011 be greatly bestowed upon you. You seem very confident in what the Lord revealed to you. Most people don't have that much to go on. Wishing you the best in 2011. God Bless.

  12. In the grip of His grace and that is a good place! With you I look forward to all that our Lord has for me..(us) Blessings!

  13. I pray that this will be a great year for you, JBR! Holding the Lord's hand is a great place to be. With Him at your side all will be well. God bless you, my friend :)

  14. "Amen,amen"!!! Let God have his way it is the best I'm so happy for you my sister!!! I too am looking forward to letting God have his way in and through me.God has great things planned for us and he will bring them to pass.

  15. You're very welcome..and really no thank needed. I can't do anything positive for you in the real world...
    Hopefully somebody lucky enough will have the chance of knowing you, and walking the life with you, along with the Lord.
    Wish a very bright new year JBR.

  16. :) :) Aha, JBR! I love your last line! I love it!!!! :) :)