"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Thursday, January 20, 2011

DEAD DOG TIRED and IN PAIN


I have not been sleeping well for the past couple of weeks. When I come home from work, many a time I go right to bed. So exhausted. But only to wake up a few hours later. Only to find it is hard to go back to sleep. I struggle.

Going to try a different approach and force myself to at least stay up a couple of hours after work. Anyway....

I forced myself to go to worship last night at church. I was exhausted. Also have a muscle spasm in my back toward the lower side which is excruciating and kept me up most of the night in pain. I have had this before and it will take a few days to work itself out. I usually have a high tolerance for pain. Muscle spasms are really painful. I see stars. End up curling up in a ball to stretch it out. It feels good for a few seconds, ahhhhhhh then within a few seconds I can feel it become tight again with pain.

Knew something was different this time than last week at church. I could only mouthed the words to the Worship songs. I was to burnt out. Had no energy. After about half hour, I could not take any more so I left. Only reason why I forced myself to go as I wanted to be in His presence and worship. I also live close by. So, I could leave and be home in five minutes if I needed to.

I needed to.

When I am extremely tired, my mind is clouded. I do not know how I arrived at home. But, I found myself at one point waiting to cross an intersection. I had the stop sign and cars were coming in both directions. Somehow I ended up in the middle of the road thinking I could cross while cars were coming right at me. Horns were blaring. I was wondering, "who are the honking at?" It was me!! Only the Heavenly Angels protected me and got me to the other side without being hit and home.

I have not been this tired in a long time. I was even too tired to even get scared after wards. You know when your adrenalin kicks in after you realize you could have almost been killed. Does not bother me even now. Just as well.

So, the moral of the story is, God is in control. If He still needs you around He will protect you. And also, do not leave home if you are dead dog tired and in terrible pain.



29 comments:

  1. Rest is sooo important. But we dont always take good care of ourselves! I need to rest more. Hugs!

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  2. You need a good rest. You go so much!
    Sending my warmest hugs!

    Blessings!
    B xx

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  3. JBR sometimes God has to get our attention the hard way. It may be time for you just to take it easy. You've been through alot. Emotionally is catching up to you physically. Those angels were right there with you. Take time for yourself. God Bless.

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  4. Oh my goodness JBR! I hope that you find enough peace, physically and emotionally to sleep deeply and well and to wake up feeling refreshed.
    Take care of yourself Sweetie.

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  5. Hope you're able to get the needed rest. Lack of sleep can throw everything off balance.

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  6. BACK PAIN AND MUSCLE CRAMPS ARE NOT FUN. HOPEING YOU FEEL BETTER SOON. YOU WERE REALLY PROTECTED LAST NIGHT. THE ANGLES WINGS CARRIED YOUR CAR TO A SAFE SPOT. INCREDIBLE.

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  7. OH YEA. YOU'VE BEEN AN INSPIRITATION TO ME. MY MOTHER IN LAW EVEN READS WHAT YOU SHARE. BETWEEN YOU AND ME THAT'S A MIRACLE IN ITSELF. TEE HEE

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  8. i have had those days that your picture describes HOpe your back does better soon. Reocvery can be difficult

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  9. Yes, indeed. God is in control.

    I had a period when I became sleep deprived and was that way for years. When I finally started getting enough sleep, it felt like a veil had lifted. Like I had been walking through fog or maple syrup. Since then, I've tried to get enough sleep.

    Only lately, I've been doing the same thing you describe. I wake up in the middle of the night and stay awake for hours. I'm pretty sure that in my case, it's a time-of-life thing. It doesn't help me to fight. I can only do my part, which is to say all the things people suggest about good sleep habits, and let go of the outcome. I have to be in acceptance about it.

    Wishing you sweet dreams.

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  10. I have noticed when I can't sleep I also have more pain from my chronic conditions. Rest is so important. Praying you will get some very soon.

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  11. I hope your sleep will come back to you soon and pray for your pain to lessen.

    How about relaxing in a warm bath with lavender oil before going to bed? Find a way JBR, to get some rest!

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  12. Oh sweetie I am so sorry for your pain. I will be praying.
    I want you to go to a natural grocers and buy some lavender and catnip in bulk at the store and make a tea to sit covered in hot water for 10 minutes (keep covered so the oils dont evaporate but stay in the tea) and yes catnip, it will be calming to you as it is not to cats of course.and drink about30minutes before bed.
    my love to you my sister in Christ.

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  13. Be smart. Go the organic way to health at http://organiconly.blogspot.com/

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  14. I hope you sleep like a baby tonight. sandie

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  15. yikes! that's so scary. i pray you have a great
    night's sleep tonight. it sounds like a good
    plan to make yourself stay up a little later.

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  16. Rest...the universe and God is trying to tell you to rest since you are so exhausted, even if you don't sleep allow yourself to rest in a bathtub, or reading...that way your body can rest too!

    Take care!!!!

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  17. My oh my sweetie, this scares the bejabbers outta me. I am prayin' that out great Father above touches you in that peace that passes all understanding and allows your deep sweet rest. We just cannot function without it and He knows our innermost needs.

    Please take care of yourself my sweet friend.

    God bless you and may you have a very peaceful, restful night! :o)

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  18. JBR,
    I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Oddly enough, I'm stuggling with sleep and back issues too. You are in my prayers, my friend. I know life seems very hard at times but all will be well if we trust in Jesus. God bless you, my friend. I remembered to pray for you at the healing service. Sending you a great big HUG!!

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  19. awwww JBR.....maybe your body is trying to tell you to slow down...something so hard for me usually to do. I hope....and pray...you're feeling way better by the time you read this....

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  20. I'm thanking God that you're safe! JBR, EAT, sleep, rest!

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  21. How awful! Continue to lean on God!!!

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  22. And thank GOD for that herd of angels!
    (I like to think we get a whole herd
    when we're weary and feeling low)
    Love and REST to you, friend.
    -Jennifer

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  23. I'm so sorry you're not feeling too well, but I'm very glad that you made it home safely. Take some time to catch up on rest. Try to avoid caffeine. Caffeine ruins everything.

    Wishing you well,
    NOS

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  24. Glad you got home safely. Not sure how God's protection works, but I trust that He has a plan! :)

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  25. Feel beter JBR. You deserve it.

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  26. i know that tiredness all too well. physical. mental. all round tiredness..... *hugs*

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  27. I'm the same way. My mind gets clouded and sometime I know I shouldn't be driving. I scare themself... :-(

    Glad you made it home safely!! Take care of yourself and get some Rest please!!!
    Big HUG,
    Coreen xoxoxoxo

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  28. Remember the old Amy Grant song "Angels watching over me"?? They were, and God has you right in HIs hands JBR. That being said... rest girlfriend! I hope you have sweet dreams tonight!

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