"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011


I have been struggling for the longest time trying to put my finger on what constantly makes me so very depressed, sad and unhappy with my life. I live with such a heaviness most of the time. Sleeping, that is if I am not disturbed by the enemy, is where I find peace most.

Yes, I can say my past has a lot to do with my depression. But that is just too general. Many things have been faced and healed. Many things also have not. Nevertheless the sadness is becoming more apparent these days. Maybe I am getting closer to the truth. I do not know?

These last few days with the uncertainty of my department's move, my feelings of loneliness, my desire to constantly be in the Lord presence under His anointing and my endless battle to gain self-worth and my skewed perception and comparing mindset probably have a lot to do with what is going on with me at present.


  1. JBR,
    Stress and lack of sleep may be adding to the problem. They tend to make everything worse! Keep your chin up, my friend! A lot of people are praying for you!

  2. I'm sorry you're feeling so badly. It sounds like right now you're going through a lot of transitions, and those can be stressful, and stress DEFINITELY can affect depression and mood. Uncertainty is also really difficult to deal with. Hang on, JBR. I know you have the resources and strength to get through this rough patch.

    Wishing you well,

  3. Take care JBR. Hope you can escape from this worry cycle soon!

  4. JBR you are under a lot of stress right now. That can effect the mood. Depression is usually caused by a chemical unbalance in the brain. Wishing you well.

  5. I pray the Lord fill your heart with joy.

  6. Hang in there. Praying for you!