"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Saturday, August 20, 2011

1970's NOT "GOOD TIMES"


You know what is weird, for the past couple of months I have been faithfully watching the 1970's sitcom, "Good Times." I remember watching that show when it came out in the 70's while I was still in high school. I really like this show!

It is becoming so evident now how detached and isolated I was.

The 1970's were not good to me. I was hurting emotionally something terribly. All by myself.

Back then, besides going off in la-la land to escape the pain of my parents divorce, my mother's remarriage, moving away from my father, my home and friends I also escaped into television. So much so, that I would play out in my mind and IRL the characters that appealed to me. My young mind and damaged heart could only grasp just what I saw on the outside. Not what was going on in the inside of a tv character yet let alone myself. I was imitating what I would call "a shell character." No depth.

While watching the TV show, "Good Times" and other sitcoms during the 1970's, I would give the appearance that I was comprehending what was going on, only to find out decades later, I zoned out. Seeing only the "shell of a individual." A sort of white noise phenomena I was experiencing.

If you were to ask me back then what the episode of the night was about, I could not tell you. This too was so evident in my school work at the time. I could not concentrate.

But today, it is like a whole new era. My awareness is so bright and clear now. I see depth into the same characters that came over as "shell individuals" so long ago. Watching these old reruns are all new to me. Like it is the first time I am ever seeing them.

I totally understand what is going on with each character and how "each person" had a life. Had an opinion. Had a purpose. The family was a unit even in the most difficult times. Something I did not have. The support was phenomenal. Interaction among the parents and the siblings were real. No shell existence this time. I am finally understanding the storyline and what it is like to be real. No zoning out here.

Same as it plays out IRL now. I see depth in people. I see and feel their pain. I feel the realness now. Good and bad.


7 comments:

  1. MAYBE THE 70S WEREN'T THAT KIND TO YOU JBR. BUT YOUR MAKING UP FOR IT NOW. SHOWS HOW THE HEALING HAS TAKEN PLACE.

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  2. Praise God for the healing that has already taken place friend. More is to come.

    I'm sorry I haven't been by. Since I left blogger, I don't have a dashboard that shows the posts of my friends.

    Bless you!
    Beth

    http://mydestinysharinghope.com/

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  3. That sounds like a good thing!

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  4. Clearer vision...what an awesome sign of knowing the "truth" because it does set anyone free!

    God bless you JBR!

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  5. HI JBR - your life's experiences are now officially "wisdom". :-)
    Love Gail'
    peace......

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  6. I think Gail said it best....have a great weekend JBR

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  7. Praise God for the insight you have that you are healing and changing from what you used to be. Keep up the good work.

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