"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011


It has been a rough few days for me. Depression has been hard, because of the constant symptoms of burning pain over most by body; not feeling well and the uncertainty of my job situation. Little JBR has really be frighten. She just wants to be held and told "everything will be alright."

Went this morning to the Neurologist.

No definitive answers. He wants to do a brain scan (MRI) to rule out any disease. But, already thinks there will be none. Kept on saying if I would take the MRI at least I could have peace before Christmas. Whatever......I really do NOT want to have this done. Will pray about it.

I believe since he had no answer, he just through the MRI up there.

He's taking me off that drug (Gabapentin) for shingles. Said it has nothing to do with my symptoms and is not working. I could have told him that.

The Neurologist said he has never heard of symptoms developing as they did. With the burning starting under my arm. He tested me for any numbness. Checking my Vertigo, had me walk one foot in front of the other. Checked my reflexes. The Vertigo could of been from an inner ear problem. Had me lie down, moving my head from one side to the other.

Then he mentioned a lot about "panic attacks" and "anxiety." Kept on going back to that topic. Whether I have a history of them. Have I been having them more recently. I mentioned I have been under stress a lot this year. Again, this could be a possibility to my symptoms. I asked, "could that have a delayed reaction?" Again, with "could be." Also, could be the change of life, but he does not think so. But then again he said....."could be." Then he reiterated, "you never ever had these symptoms before until a month and a half ago?" I said, correct.

Along with God, Big JBR needs to comfort the little one. As she is scared.

A lot of "could be's." I am no more closer to an answer then before. And more uncertain and concerned.

He did not prescribe any thing or told me how I could relieve some of the burning.

I know one thing, my faith is really being tested. All I can sense now is seeking out God more and His plan of action.

At the same time, I am trying to be as calm as I can be in order not to trigger more of being uncomfortable. That seems to be the key.


  1. It must be frustrating for you not to know what this is about. But a lot of symptoms sometimes are triggered from just too much stress. You had undergone a lot when your mom got sick, too. I just pray that everything is truly "nothing" and is healed by His merciful hands. Take care JBR! God bless.

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  2. Feel better JBR. I'm sorry all of this is happening to you.

  3. It's hard when you are sick and no one can give you a diagnosis, JBR - I went through that for years and my heart goes out to you. My prayers are with you, my friend. Sending you a big hug!

  4. Sister, praying for you. The darkest hour comes just before the dawn. Hold on in faith . . . Jesus will meet you where you are.
    Love to you,

  5. I have been praying lots for you JBR. There is no harm in having the MRI, I believe it doesn't hurt.

    Praying for a confirmation from God as what to do.

    You are not walking alone. So many are here supporting you. Jesus is right beside you and carrying you when you are too weary.

    Continuing to pray for some answers.

  6. Hi JBR,

    You have been in my thoughts, and I want you to know that you are important to me.

    I think your doctor is just being thorough, by asking you to have the MRI.

    I do know how you feel, the doctors send you for so many tests. I have been through what you describe here.

    God will make a way when there seems to be no way! He did for me, and He will for you. He healed me from MS. Nothing is impossible for God!

  7. I would go ahead a do the MRI just to rule out anything he may have missed. Praying for some relief for you soon. Wanda

  8. Dear precious one~

    I am so sorry that you are going through this. The not knowing can be so difficult. I too, believe that your doctor is trying to be thorough and cover all the bases with an MRI.

    As always, you are in my thoughts and prayers!


  9. JBR you've accomplished so much on your journey. I'm proud of you. Go with the leading of the Holy Spirit what he wants you to do next. You don't have to rush into things. The doctor didn't say what you're going through was life threatening right? Wait upon the Lord. God Bless.

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  11. I'll be praying for you too, JBR.

  12. Remember...nothing is too big for God to heal. I'm praying for answers for you. Just breath deep and hang on til this passes.

    Love you my friend.

  13. I am sorry that he didn't have any answers for you. I know how frustrating this is for you. I no that no news is good news but you need to be healed. Keeping you in my prayers. ((HUGS))


  15. Wow. I came over to thank you for the comment on my blog, Cross Addicted, and then when I saw that you're getting checked over by a Neurologist, I had to pause. My hubby has an appt tomorrow morning for an EEG, and he's been having anxiety attacks a LOT recently, as well.
    I know the enemy is mad, but I also know how the story ends. My pc time is limited currently, but I'll be back as time permits. Transparency IS what it's about, I agree!!

  16. praying for you too to feel better....and that whatever is causing this will go....

  17. JBR, I'll be praying for you. I'm having a hard time, too. I'm having terrible upper back pain and my husband's mothe r died last night. Sitting at the hospital has intensified my pain and so has the stress. BUT this is the season of hope and peace and light and I pray that for both of us. Jesus came to help us through difficult situations and that is as sure today as it has always been. Blessings to you this season.

  18. I'm right there with you, JBR! I'll hang on to you, if you hang on to me! Deal?
    The holidays are always a hard time for me. Seems extreme this year though. Anyway, I'm struggling right along with you so I can definitively say...you are NOT alone! Hang in there!

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  20. Hi JBR,
    I am praying....