"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Friday, December 09, 2011


Had a night of unbelievable attack from the enemy. Throwing every kind of 'fear' conceivable my way in every waking hour I had. Attacking my belief system. Bringing me at times to sheer panic which led me to becoming sick to my stomach. Showing me how much of a threat I am to him. Literally he is after my life. I am just thankful that I can use the Word of God against him. But, he is strong. And I can see just how weak I am in my faith. I know through trials and trust, my faith muscle will become stronger. But, right now I feel so defeated. Exhausted and in physical pain all over.

Satan is a stubborn beast and relentless. I guess I am more amazed at how determined he is to destroy me. I thought I have felt the worst in my life, but no. Something I greatly sense in the atmosphere of the heavens is soon approaching. There is a stirring of magnitude proportion of an extreme spiritual battle among believers and extreme release of freedom.

I know I live in a fallen world and have an enemy that wants to kill steal and destroy. In my weakness, I am trying to hold on to the truth that I have even a BIGGER God who has already won the battle for me.

The days ahead will be a test of belief. That I am loved. That I am worthy. That I have purpose. Very, very hard for me! When my circumstances around me are telling me different. My flesh wants So much to give up. When you have been beating up from all sides, emotionally and physically.

But, God is up to something....

Stretching is so very painful and scary. So very painful!!


  1. JBR you're much stronger than you think. You are a child of God. Made in the image of Christ. And if you can just believe and hold on to the fact that you are his, he'll strengthen and uphold you every single second of your life. Hang in there my friend. God loves you. God bless.


  3. For every child of God defeats this evil world, and we achieve this victory through our faith. And who can win this battle against the world? Only those who believe that Jesus is the Son of God. 1 John 5:4-5 Victory belongs to you JBR!

  4. came by to wish you a fabulous day......hope it's one filled with Sonshine.

  5. Oh, yes...God is up to something all right...and we have His promise that it will end in TOTAL VICTORY!

  6. And don't you give up JBR! Because you are already on the side that won! (Thanks be to Jesus!). It is through a spiritual battle that He had drawn me closer so I completely understand how frightening and mentally and physically draining it could be...I'm so grateful, too that we have His weapons to use in this unseen, very real battle. The first Scripture He wanted me to etch in my heart is Ephesians 6:10. No wonder, it also serves as a daily reminder for me that we are not fighting on our own strength but by His power and might. Glory be to our good God! Take care JBR! I'm glad you agreed with me that we don't need any "prize" to be at work on time :) Ridiculous, wasn't it? God bless.

  7. I am sorry you had such a rough night. You came through it and even if you think you are so weak in your faith that's ok, because God is strong and He will work through that.

    Satan is on the move because I believe Jesus is returning soon. I too have been under attack and I am realizing that Satan will do what he does and we will continue to praise God, worship and honour Him and that will deflate the evil one's balloon.

    Praying for you.

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  9. You write from your heart and my heart understands. I am stretching with you. Thank you for your honesty. In raw real form. It's refreshing and healing for me. We are not alone. God bless you my friend. Mile

  10. Sorry for the struggle. I know placing your hope in God is the only way to go. Here with you.

  11. Keep fighting.

    Keep on believing.

    Keep blogging!


  12. and so very very rewarding. You have stretched beyond anything you ever thought possible already. You have done it. You can do it again! And yes, it is painful, very much so. Rewarding, accomplished, grown and more healthy after the pain....Hugs and love

  13. He never allows us to be stretched
    beyond what He created us to stretch.
    We can trust that He is faithful
    that way.
    He is faithfulness.
    He is a fantastic shepherd.
    Hold on to Him, friend:)
    love and grace,

  14. I am sorry that satan is attacking you...You have it right, God always rescues us after the stretching

  15. JBR...I have learned that God is ALWAYS up to something! Keep doing what you KNOW TO BE true and right and leave the rest to God. If the enemy thinks you are worth fighting for....imagine how much more God thinks you are worth! You are fighting the spiritual battle of your life....and you are winning and satan hates that! Keep doing what you're doing and I'm sure you'll get a reprieve soon!

  16. I could be wrong, but I don't see your struggles being "spiritual". I see them as emotional. We don't read the Bible to treat the flu-and we don't treat emotional problems reading the Psalms.

  17. I am so sorry.
    Don't ever give up. God's love surrounds you.

  18. JBR checking back in on you and hoping you're doing all right? Always thinking of you. You're special to me. God Bless.

  19. JBR checking back in on you and hoping you're doing all right? Always thinking of you. You're special to me. God Bless.

  20. It is painful. My family and I are going through a fire of trials which seem to test my faith. I was so comforted by reading about God's refining fire on "a quiet gracious life" on blogspot. I felt like it was meant for me that day. If you haven't seen it yet go take a look.(just a couple days ago). My prayers will be against the spirtual battle I know is going on and understand so well.

  21. HI JBR ~ I agree that you are strong because He has made you strong! We grow through our struggles. We just have to stay strong in the Lord and in His word. Keep up the good fight. I believe satan is attacking the Christians because he knows his time is short.

    God Bless...Chelle

  22. I can relate. I experience fear many times in the middle of the night. The sheer terror keeps me awake many nights.

    I pray that God will surround you with angels during the night, and surround you with a blanket of peace...

  23. Praying for you sister. Through the stretching, we are strengthened. Our faith grows stronger through the battle if we continue to fight the fight of faith in the spiritual realm, where the battle really is, with the Word of God. Jesus ALWAYS did battle with the devil with the word of God . . . may your words in battle always begin with, "It is written . . ." Stand firm in your faith and watch the Lord's victory. Live for Him . . . He died for you.
    Sending lots of love and big hugs,

  24. Greetings From Southern California

    Have a Merry Christmas & Happy 2012

    ~Ron @ *TOGB

  25. Darlin', in our weakness He is strong. Just remember that God's strength is mightier than all the negatives combined. He doesn't promise it won't be hard but He does promise He will never forsake us.

    Prayin' for ya Hon!!! You are loved!

    God bless and have a victorious day my friend! :o)