"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Saturday, February 04, 2012


Stingers is a new term I am using that illustrates what the devil attacks me with.

If anyone has ever been stung by a bee knows how painful their stinger can be. The stinger remains in you long after the bee injects you and dies. Pumping the poison through your veins until you remove it. Some people can have such a severe allergic reaction to the poison that they could go into shock and die if not taken care of.

Satan's stingers can also bring ever lasting damage to your soul if not taken care of. Remaining in you for many painful years.

Without a doubt I know I am very close to MY breakthrough. I know it. God knows it. And satan knows it. Satan knows it so much that his stingers have more of a deadly poison to them now. Challenging right out now my worthiness and my aching heart that wants so bad to be filled with God's love. Stinging doubts.

I CANNOT wait for the day where the desire of me wanting to please God will outweigh pleasing man!!! Right now it remains still flip-flopped! A very painful and frustrating place to be at.

The words to this video touched me! I need encouragement more now than ever before. I need the assurance that God really does love me and has a plan for my life. This song is a ministering salve (a love letter from God) for any broken and damaged heart.

Since I was brought up NOT in a conducive expression of love environment, God knows how much my heart has been broken and damaged. He knows how much I want to be loved and be able to receive love and reciprocate!

If you can, please listen and give the words a chance to minister to you. The longing can be ever so painful. My heart is hurting and desiring so much for Him.



  2. Oh I love this comparsion JBR...I was listening to my mother yesterday and she still has so many "stingers" in her shooting their poison in her ...awesome post today JBR....really got to me "evaluating" myself for stingers that may be still within me....thanks! Hugs from Arkansas

  3. JBR I want you to look at what Job said during his most painful times. "If I go to the east, [God] is not there; if I go to the west, I do not find him. When he is at work in the north, I do not see him; when he turns to the south, I catch no glimpse of him." Hold on, it gets better. Then later he said that no matter what you feel or what happens, God does exist and he deeply loves you. Yes you JBR. No matter how awful things become, no matter what happens, we can never be separated from God's love. God Bless.

  4. HI JBR -wonderful video/song, thanks for sharing, and might I add the venom from bees can also be life-giving - for my condition bee stings help subdue symptoms from MS, I am just sayin' cuz some times the sting can be used otherwise and then its a win-win
    Love to you

  5. Hey Gail, you are right. I remember reading about the venom being used for other medicinal uses. Glad it works for you.

  6. Wishing you always the best in your growth...

  7. I like the analogy. You are correct that the enemy uses stingers to draw our attention away from the One that grants peace and healing. Jesus came to set the captives free! Today I posted a song by Matthew West that you may find soothing. Just know you are in my prayers and trust that soon, the enemy will be a gnat. HUGS!!!


  8. I'm glad your getting close. I always found it to be amazing that when I went to a Woman's Retreat weekend that when we were done and on our ways home so many of us were attacked by Satan the following week. Obviously Satan was jealous of our time with God.

  9. Just this morning, upon seeing how much damage had been done with my status at work, the enemy was good at stabbing my heart. I have Psalm 46:1 I wrote on a little card in front of my computer that brought me back again to reality...His!

    " 1 God is our refuge and strength,
    an ever-present help in trouble."

    I believe, too JBR that my victory is on its way...I had waited for over a year now. But I feel it coming. You encourage me because we might not have the same trials but we are both going through fiery trials...And we both believe and serve God Who is able!!! Praise His Name!Have a great weekend and God bless.

  10. Hi JBR,
    What a great comparison!

    I love Misty Edwards and have not heard this song yet, thanks for sharing it. The words are beautiful and healing.


  11. interesting line in reference to pleasing God rather than man...I think I'm finally leaning over the edge to wanting to please HIM more than anyone else...

  12. God has many ways to reveal His love to us and I'm glad this song encouraged you. He has victory for you!