My soul desire is to become deeply planted in Christ. And it is happening!
My Heavenly Daddy slowly continues to specifically do a deep cleaning of removing one of my deepest roots....."shame." Replacing the shame fragments a little bit at a time with His love.
Unfortunately, my mum tries to use "shame" to this day to control me. But, now I stand up to her. My father, I do not believe did it for control. He was a frustrated man. He had more of a critical, judgmental, and demeaning spirit. Bringing on fear. Which would eventually bring shame upon my little girl.
These days when I am in the Presence of my Heavenly Daddy, a little bit more of His deep cleaning of that infected area around my little girl's heart is healed. Hallelujah!
I encourage any of you today who need a deep cleaning to let Him minister to your pain and mend your broken heart. It is not going to be pleasant. You have to be willing! You have to be serious! You have to be down-right tired of the way your life, or that particular area is winning. Zapping who you are, your joy, your health your relationship with your Heavenly Father.
There will be endless times you will want to quit. As you will think the pain is too unbearable. You are going to die! But during those painful times His hand is always extended. Grab as hard as you want! He can take it. God will not break.
But....... you will!
For the better!!