Having to do things right at times in front of people can still be a struggle for me. Not that I want to impress. But I am trying to avoid the feelings of shame and judgement that take over when I "think" I am not successful at a task. Even though people are probably not even casting those lying stones of shame and judgement my way. It can be hard to believe otherwise.
My dad shamed me terribly when I could not do things right! I had a habit of holding my breath many times in deep concentration, while I was attempting to do something correctly in order not to get criticized or disapproving looks. Sadly most times in my anxiousness to please him, the end result due to my nervousness to shine ended up in defeat.
My mum had her way of shaming me verbally. Still trying to use methods on me to this day in order to control me with stabs to my own personal appearance and intelligence.
But, with my Heavenly Daddy's help I have endured and am beginning to believe that I am worthy! That He accepts me just as I am. Warts and all. He does not look at the outside, but my heart. Which is on the mend.
My worst mistakes will never make God not love me, shame me or abandon me. He loves me despite my imperfections.
Philippians 4:6-7: “Do not be anxious about anything” (v.6).
Our anxiety level increases when we believe statements like: “Disappointing my parents would be terrible” or “If I make a mistake in front of others it would be awful.” The truth is: it would be distasteful, painful, annoying, inconvenient — even sad, but not the end of the world.
What if you did make a mistake delivering your next sales presentation? What if your mother was angry because you couldn’t come to Sunday dinner? What if your spouse retreated in pouting silence when you said, No?
The next time you feel anxiety in your stomach, ask yourself: What is the worst thing that could happen to me? Listen carefully for the answer and then ask another question: Will that worst scenario ever cause God to withhold his love from me?
Lord, if I made a mistake, I’d be embarrassed.
If my mate got mad at me, it would be extremely unpleasant.
If one of my parents died, I’d be grief-stricken.
But with your help I would endure,
knowing that one day I’ll be with you
and everything will be perfect.
Copyright 2012 Joan C. Webb
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!