My dad for many years did not work. That was the main reason my mum divorced him. Although he found time to be a Scout Leader of the local Boy Scouts. He enjoyed that.
On occasion he had to baby sit me on Saturday's and would have to take me with him if his troop had plans for that day while my mum worked.
I remember one particular Saturday morning where the Boy Scouts made a make-shift high swing in the air and used me as bait to see if it would hold and work. I was about seven. I remember being oh so very high in the air and scared. Why my dad felt led to use me, I do not know.
Regardless, cherishing any time with my dad was priceless. Even if I was in competition with twenty other boys for his attention.
So, as much as I did not like the idea of being hoisted up very high to see if the swing the boys made held or not, which it did, I did not want to disappoint my dad.
As I continue to emotionally heal from my past wounds, I know that I do not have to worry about disappointing my Heavenly Daddy. Nor fight for His attention. His eye is on me alone. As His eye is on you alone. God has more than enough love and tender mercy for each of us individually to be satisfied. No competition. WoW. That is an awesome thought.
Just keep believing this, because it is very true. Will you ever forget the past? No. But praying that someday you'll not hurt when you think of it. My turn to send you a hug today!
ReplyDeleteMy heart feels sad for that little girl...yet, I am overjoyed by the lavish love of our Heavenly Father and am so thankful that we know that love! Many blessings to you on this journey!
ReplyDeletejust one more awesome thing about God...no one is more special to Him...and no one has to feel guilty for how much they are cherished. :) very cool!
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ReplyDeleteSometimes these memories can be painful but it is great knowing that you are healing. Daddy's love is so fulfilling and so complete.
Blessings,
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Hurtful memories will always come back to haunt us.
ReplyDeleteThey are a part of us and always will be.
Sin and selfishness always brings hurt and destruction but in spite of that our guardian angels were there with us, even though that may be hard to believe.
When those memories do come up maybe we should ask God to show us how those guardian angels came in for us.... they were there in the capacity that God allowed them to be. We each have at least one.... Blessings and love to you today and everyday...
"As I continue to emotionally heal from my past wounds, I know that I do not have to worry about disappointing my Heavenly Daddy. Nor fight for His attention. His eye is on me alone. As His eye is on you alone. God has more than enough love and tender mercy for each of us individually to be satisfied. No competition. WoW. That is an awesome thought."
ReplyDeleteThat is a beautiful statement and so very true, Grace. Wow is right! I hope people will take those words to heart because they really show God's complete and individual love for each one of us. No competing, no fighting for attention...a complete and total love that surrounds each and every one of us. Great post!
Thanks for sharing that story. Hugs for the week-end!
ReplyDeleteNo competition....that is an awesome thought!
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your weekend.
It's good to know a loving Father's care. Grace be with you.
ReplyDeleteOh, JBR, I'm so sorry to hear that you were not better protected. You deserved undivided attention and protection - I am glad that you are finding it in your spiritual life! I'm sorry I have been absent for so long - I hope you are doing well! Sending you many hugs and wishing you a great weekend. xx
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