"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Thursday, January 24, 2013


I know I told you I felt in my Spirit to discontinue this blog in my last post. But, since then, such a rising of appreciation and "love" has developed for you all. Your heartfelt comments touched me. Also, at the same time, in all honesty, I felt abandoned. No fault of any of you. But, this was good observation on my part. As it was brought up in therapy tonight.
Along with, my parakeet. Yes, my parakeet and the many parakeets I have had over the years as long as I can remember. Growing up as a kid having parakeets. My therapist pointed out that I found comfort in having parakeets. And that in them I did not know until tonight, it was God in all of them. Comforting my little one for sooooooo many years. Comforting her pain. As the little bird would sit on my chest as a ten year old and make my little girl feel safe and happy. Comforting me from the emotional pain of sexual abuse, my parents divorce, fear, rejection, feelings of abandonment, isolation, anger, etc.

This revelation was a BIG eye opener for me tonight. I choked up as truth and reality hit me hard. My little girl was very evident tonight as she tried to share her pain from so long ago. Feeling tonight frighten (like I felt as a kid), such fear, hurt, having my heart ripped away and saddness. Unbeknownst to her, that her Heavenly Daddy came to her in the form of many little feathered colored creatures over the years. To comfort and give out the love and joy that only her little heart could accept and relate to. Remembering as a kid talking and reading little stories to her birdie as he sat on her chest as she lied down.

Not only that, since I am getting more and more in touch with my feelings, I understand the significance of certain memories now. The Lord is letting me have these certain isolation memories, but only quickly. As I believe they would be too painful for a long duration.

So, with all that being said. I was in prayer again. And I feel the Spirit is prompting me to stay on here and blog.

Only, that I will not be posting as often and only with the leading of what the Holy Spirit wants me to share from now on.

Also, my time will be limited on visiting any of your blogs like I once had.

Thank you all for your kind remarks and comments to me.

You all mean a lot to me!

I am truly blessed by your love!


  1. I am sure your blog has helped many and I don't doubt that God wants you to stay here. ((HUGS))

  2. I'm glad you are staying, Grace.

    Yours is parakeets and mine is dogs :) I can't seem to do without dogs. And I know it's because my childhood pet brought me such comfort when I was hurting and had no one to comfort me.


  3. Many times I felt.like stopping my posting, too since going through that battle at my workplace...only to realize it's not because that's what He wants but because I lost enthusiasm at work that infected my being excited to write about my work experiences and the spiritual lessons I get.from them that in return I hope to use to encourage others here... Let us pray JBR. for us bloggers...for the Lord to give us all discernment...for Him to be known by others who come by to our sites and that of others. Praying for your continued healing and that you will always remain strong in His mighty power!

  4. Hi hon,
    I am so glad you changed your mind! :)You have a lot to offer those who are going through tough situations. You are a clear writer and it is always a pleasure to read and pray for you.

    I think God uses animals a lot. I also wonder if maybe angels come in the form of animals to love and encourage us.


  5. Yay!!! So glad you are staying. I almost closed my blog a few months ago, but I'm staying on for now. The blogging world needs you, my friend~

  6. Oh yay! I could not help myself. I was so sadddd... I was like, "ok...ugh..." but I just went past to see if you actually deleted this and you didn't! I'm so happy now! But good I'm glad Daddy is letting you keep this!
    Oh and yes I found all the things I deal with is a troubled past also, God has made sense to me through many of His creations too!

  7. Yay!!! Glad you will still be sharing with us.

    I'm glad you found comfort in your little feathered friends. God's creatures are such an incredible blessing. I have found tremendous comfort in my kitty.

    Welcome back hugs!!

  8. So glad you are keeping your blog up and running. I believe you are needed here by many...and GOD has a plan too.

  9. I'm very glad you are staying in blogland. You are a blessing I know. You have been an encouragement to me.

  10. Oh I am so glad that the Lord prompted you to stay! I pray that He will continuing revealing things to you and comforting you in whatever way He chooses :)

  11. Glad you are staying, love you.

  12. What a blessing; I believe God has called you to stay and be encouraged and has given you a wonderful gift to encourage others through your writing that you just can't ignore my friend. Keep communicating from your loving heart Grace! :)


  13. JBR I can't tell you how you've made my day when in my inbox I got a notice that you posted on your blog. With good news! I like many of your followers are happy for your return. God's purpose is not finished here for you. What you share is vital to the ears that need to hear. To the hearts that need touching. I being one of them. God Bless.

  14. You can't go wrong following His lead. I look forward to seeing what else God unfolds in your life.

  15. Hi JBR,
    I am glad to here you are going to continue with this blog. I believe many has been blessed by what you write. Your writings has given me many things to consider. It is ok to not write as many posts or visit blogs all the time. We must do as the Holy Spirit leads.
    Keep moving forward in Christ, my friend,

  16. The Lord bless and keep you; He touches His people in His own way.

  17. It's okay to change your mind :) I have found your posts helpful. I have a kitty who helps me through the tough times.

  18. I'm glad that I caught this post today, as I hadn't read your previous one (restarted school this week). I'm glad you'll be here, posting, when you feel led. Your words often create such comfort and understanding for me, and I know that others feel the same.

    I'm glad you're here.

  19. I am glad you are back to blogging. I can relate to much of what you say and you have helped me. Also, my new passion is feeding birds. I have hung some feeders on the trees by my sunroom and delight in watching them. The most prominent ones are goldfinch and not much bigger than parakeets. Like butterflies, they keep me in awe of The Father's great artistry and creativity.

  20. AMEN!! Ditto to everyone else's words. My comforter came in the form of Kitty. I can't live without a feline companion, now. God is good-my hubby feels the same way. LOL
    THANKS for coming back and you are a huge blessing!

  21. Your drawing healthy boundary lines and being healthy in your time management also...I too have limited myself to visiting blogs these days...when once I was visiting SO many each and every day, I may a few a week now...I'm glad your not closing the group....but if you did, well it was meant to be...I just find 'comfort' to come here. As I was going to for a walk tonight I was talkin to the Lord and telling Him.'I think I need to visit her again and see what is going on'..it's like my therapy board here for me, for everything you write, though circumstances and people different,I can connect with what you write...it's been a very difficult time for me since oct..I call this the 'transformation' time starting and has been continuing...dealing with memories from my childhood, all the way to now at 48 years of age...it's been emotional to say the least and at times I just don't want to deal with it, but i'm so tired of being in denial. just plain yuck...but getting healthy hurts..and I'm done being sick...blessings.