and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!
Friday, February 01, 2013
MY LITTLE GIRL SPEAKS
im scared Alone. shaking don't like what feel in belly stuck. Locked up in pain don't like when feel. what i feel. Hurts. Cnfused.bg p I don't like feeling scared. big powerful people scare me. No good hate me Make fun me feel stupid When they look at me some hurt scare . me different lauf at angyr I never grew up. fun taken let me play life died Mlife stopped whenmy home and daddy split. inside died. no one told me hurt bad miond so small don't understnadI cry now. couldn't cry then missed out. missed life. dopn't go died died died every thng died inside head died. heart died so angry yell can't hide hide in corner lost don't go touch hurts scares why pain tocuch scary run runrun look away cant look wrong scared help love me don't hurt me dobn't make me inside hurts hurts pain. Angry can't speak hit
Big JBR did not want her little girl to speak. But, I knew in order to begin to heal, I have to give her voice despite the fears.
My little girl wrote the above early this morning. Took me by surprise. I did not know how this was going to come down. Just sat at the computer closed my eyes, then typed my pain as the tears came.
A few hours have passed and I returned to this blog to post the ending of this post. I am amazed at what my little girl revealed. Reliving hurts. Only the beginning.