Do you know what hurts more than anything right now for me?
Hurting......
It is that I am at a place in my Spiritual walk where I so desperately WANT TO FEEL (tangibly in my heart) the assurance of my Heavenly Daddy's loving comfort when I am hurting so bad inside.
My little girl did not receive the comfort she needed so desperately as a child when hurt. If anything, she was smothered in fear and enmeshment with her mum. Earthly daddy was not around.
Now, as my little girl's hurt runs so deep and the tears gush out as the pain of the fear of abandonment and rejection are brought up within, I want her to be able to have her pain hugged by her Heavenly Daddy.
When I am hurting so bad, I want to draw on His love.....
But it is difficult to. Because I have not yet arrived at that point on my journey! Fear of trusting my Heavenly Daddy with His love.
I often think of the people that do feel God's love. As I see the comfort and love they receive in their pain from Him. And I want it too!!!
I will be praying that you feel God's love JBR! Open up to Him in some worship so you may feel His peace. Try to block out anything negative so that God can talk to you! I too sometimes want to feel God when I can't - mainly when I have anxiety, but He always tells me, "Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations. I will be exalted among the earth." - Psalm 46:10
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Hugs ♥ !
((HUGS)) Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers always.....
ReplyDeletePraying that the walls of fear of intimacy with our Heavenly fall to the side and you can feel His touch upon you.
ReplyDeletePraying for you.
ReplyDeleteYou will receive it...I have finally got to that place starting in August..and it just keeps getting more and more intense..this overwhelming sense of peace, and love and comfort like I have never experienced in my entire life..so I cry...At times (like yesterday) a memory will well up..so painful and at a time where it's in public......I give it to the Lord, ask Him to deal with it, help me to deal with it in a healthy way and I find I am comforted and loved by Him....I think He is showing me right there and than...through that intense pain, I CAN be enveloped with His love that takes it all away...and move forward..still such a process..so much to let go of..but I am..PAIN..positive attitude in negative situation.
ReplyDeleteKeep seeking it and you will feel it soon. Press in and the wall that has been built around your little girl will come down.
ReplyDeletePraying for you hon.
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I can relate to your pain. It can be so hard to trust even our heavenly Daddy with our pain.
ReplyDeleteYou will be able to feel His love. just keep on loving Him and it will come. prayers to you!
ReplyDeleteFeeling has always been hard for me too. I don't always feel it now but when I really seek after Him, and allow myself to open up, HE seems to show up in an amazing way! Just keep pressing into Him...more and more. He will be there!
ReplyDeleteBlessings...Chelle
JBR keep seeking him.Even when you feel nothing. One day his love is going to hit you like a ton of bricks and your heart will be opened and all I can say when that happens look out. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteSending you hugs!!!
ReplyDeleteOh I'm so sorry you don't feel it, JBR. I go through periods of time when I feel God's love, and other times when I don't. It is so hard when I don't feel it. I try to remember that I don't need to feel it for it to be true. But it is hard. Hugs.
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