Me, and my little girl have been seeking the presence of the Holy Spirit to specifically reveal these deep underlying fears the little one feels constantly in her gut. Been with her throughout most her life. Making her so very uncomfortable and frightened. She is tired.
Right now the pain from her past still stabs her with feelings of rejection, abandonment, shame and guilt. Even to the point of fearing that her Heavenly Daddy may reject her. Which brings on the fear of being hurt emotionally.
It hurts too much to feel that kind of pain when your hopes have been crushed too many times. Believing and accepting that you are not wanted or needed. Always there is an uncertainty which she has no control of. Which subconsciously, I think rolls over into lack of self-worth.
Without a doubt, Big JBR feels strongly in her spirit that her Heavenly Daddy does love her. Will not reject her. That she has and is growing closer to Him. That she is being ministered to in order to be stronger for the little one. Glory be to God!
It is the little one who cannot really grasp "yet" in her heart that her Heavenly Daddy will NOT reject her. That He does love her. She longs for that comfort of her pain that she never received as a child!
Sort of like a Catch 22.