"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Wednesday, February 06, 2013


Me, and my little girl have been seeking the presence of the Holy Spirit to specifically reveal these deep underlying fears the little one feels constantly in her gut. Been with her throughout most her life. Making her so very uncomfortable and frightened. She is tired.

Right now the pain from her past still stabs her with feelings of rejection, abandonment, shame and guilt. Even to the point of fearing that her Heavenly Daddy may reject her. Which brings on the fear of being hurt emotionally.

It hurts too much to feel that kind of pain when your hopes have been crushed too many times. Believing and accepting that you are not wanted or needed. Always there is an uncertainty which she has no control of. Which subconsciously, I think rolls over into lack of self-worth.

Without a doubt, Big JBR feels strongly in her spirit that her Heavenly Daddy does love her. Will not reject her. That she has and is growing closer to Him. That she is being ministered to in order to be stronger for the little one. Glory be to God!

It is the little one who cannot really grasp "yet" in her heart that her Heavenly Daddy will NOT reject her. That He does love her. She longs for that comfort of her pain that she never received as a child!

Sort of like a Catch 22.

"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you[a] free from the law of sin and death. For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh,[b] God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering.[c] And so he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the Spirit." Romans 8:1-4


  1. HI GRACE-just keep letting the lil you know she is safe and no harm will come and that YOU will make all good choices that always consider her. Promise her.
    Love to you
    Gail/Annie <3

  2. A very insightful post, Grace. I've seen this in myself too.

    Hugs to you, my friend!

  3. Hi JBR, I lift your precious little girl up to the Lord in prayer, that He fill her with His presence and fill her heart with His peace and joy.
    God bless,

  4. Hi hon,
    Remember those rebuking prayers you posted a long time ago? I wonder if you little girl needs to say them too.

    Standing with Ken in prayer lifting your little girl up to our Lord.


  5. I saw your post regarding the song "Word of God Speak" and I had the song playing into my heart and mind the other day, too. I pray you will always let His Word overcome that fear. There is no place for fear. Because of His love. Be strong JBR!

  6. Fear is a difficult thing to conquer, but you must face it first. I feel like you are getting closer to conquering it every day.

  7. I totally understand where you are coming from and it can be very hard to trust. Letting go and letting God is not easy. ((HUGS)) Praying that you will find peace.

  8. I wonder, what is it about Little JBR that makes her so much less lovable (in your eyes, not my own) than Big JBR? I have a guess, but I don't want to assume anything. But if my guess is correct, then I sincerely hope you realize that what happened to you does NOT reflect negatively on Little or Big JBR in any way. I think who we are is reflected in the pattern of choices we make; when choices are taken away from us then it means nothing about who we are.

    Be well,

  9. Completely understandable! The little JBR doesn't feel worthy, but remind her she has a big huge Daddy that loves her! I'm glad you are being strenghtend through Christ JBR! Hugs!

  10. Aw, I understand a least a little about the fear of being hurt emotionally. Such a good reflection about the feelings of the little child inside of you. May Little Jesus and Big Daddy help your Little Child heal her wounds.

  11. My little girl used to say to me, "Your father hates you, your mother hates you and God hates you." I heard that in my mind over and over - but it was not true, just something I believed as a child. Praying about it and speaking scripture out loud has stilled that voice except in rare occasions. Take heart. It will take time but your little girl will one day believe God loves her.

  12. Though I've not suffered in the same way as you, JBR, I certainly understand the little girl hiding inside the big girl. My little girl is often scared, and she feels unworthy of love. But once again, I'm reminded - feelings aren't facts. Your Heavenly Father lives you so much!!

  13. I appreciate how openly you speak about your struggle, your journey. Sometimes with all of my trauma, the world looks so big, so very big. I try to remind my little girl inside that it is okay, today I have choices. Thanks so much for sharing.

  14. Praying for you, JBR, that your little girl will believe and receive the love of God and He will take away her fears.