"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Sunday, March 17, 2013


I reach out to the ones that suffer like I do.

I believe when I shared over a year ago that I was beginning to go through menopause that some of you shared your struggles as well with this part of life.

Well, in a years time, my memory or lack there of has decreased. I could be talking to someone and then walk away. Only to find out if you would ask me what we talked about, on a good day, I would be able to tell you bits and pieces. But not really much detail. This frustrates me now. And is embarrassing when I try and recall something a few minutes earlier.

Grant it, I have always struggled with memory recall, due to my abuse and shutting down. But the onset of menopause this past year has made it even worse it seems.

A lady I once knew, who went through menopause, told me that one of the worst things she suffered was her short term memory. I chuckled at that at first. Now, I know what she meant.

Even when someone is talking to me and a thought comes in my mind to for a response, now I forget. I never use to forget. So, I try and repeate in my mind what I want to say at the same time trying to listen to what they are saying.

I used to be really conscience of my surroundings and what I was doing. Now, when I start a project like cleaning up after myself, I will walk away and do another project, only to leave that one, and forget about the first one and the second one. Only to return a half hour later to the first one by chance and say to myself, "Oh, I forgot about this. I cannot believe I did not do this?"

So, what I do now, when I start something, I either say what I need to do out loud repeatedly to myself at the moment. Otherwise I will forget. Another plan I have come up with is when I am at home, knowing most probably the scenario these days with my memory, will be me walking away from an uncompleted chore, and if I am conscience enough to know I am walking away from unfinished business, I will then either leave a light on near the site, or pull out a chair in the hallway near what I was trying to do to make me wonder the next time I see these traps of reminders..... "Why did I do that?" Then I find out why as I walk towards the traps I set for myself. Because of an unfinished "whatever" I was doing......

Any of you who have gone through or know someone who as gone through menopause had similar symptoms? Just curious. Thanks.


  1. Dear friend, I'm afraid it's called aging and it only gets worse. I walked straight through the screen door at the front of our house and knocked it out not just once yesterday but twice. I'm praying for all of us who are aging. It's not easy. They say growing old is not for sissies.

  2. I have emerged from menopause finally. Your brain does come back but you aren't the same person you use to be and for me that is a good thing. I wish I had used the hormone cream earlier I could have avoided some of the suffering but I am hard headed and use to suffering.

    I did come back and feel good again. Lately I have had to watch a friend of mine go through the same thing. She won't listen about the hormones either. So don't give up it doesn't last forever.

  3. I didn't know that short term memory loss could be a symptom of menopause. I'm so sorry you're struggling with this. But it sounds like you are finding tricks to try and cope, and that's great. You're so strong, JBR. So strong.

    Be well,

  4. Not yet but I have heard that puzzles like Sudoku are very helpful in training the memory and keeping the brain active.

    Blessings hon,

  5. Yes, I have been through the menopause. Hope you will have an easy journey, praying for you.

  6. I can't even blame menopause for my scatter brain-ha! I sure don't look forward to it, and can't imagine it's only going to make it even worse. I have to agree with Peggy; the older I get the worse my memory gets (it hasn't ever been great!)I have learned to make lots of to-do lists, and write down everything in my day planner to try and keep me on track! :)

    Blessings and love as you go through this time in your life friend-it won't last forever (they say!) :)

  7. Oh I am so sorry JBR! I do not have menopause of course, but glory to Daddy you are alive, well, and being healed.

    But I too have the same issues you have. I forget things as soon as someone tells me. My mother gets upset thinking I'm irresponsible, but I really do forget. I have sticky notes and highlighters everywhere. The Lord tells me to use ones that are extra bright so they'll catch my attention. I also ask Him to help me remember things because once my mind is on another subject, whatever thought that was before is gone!

    Usually after I learn something too my mind is done. My min thinks, also I, it was too much work so it goes into the recycling bin like a computer.

    I too when I'm doing something I'll stop and do 5 other things. Then I'll forget to finish what I started. But the Lord always brings me back and allows me to have breaks. I can't sit at once place for too long. Before my anxiety got pretty severe, it was not like this...

    I will be praying for you hun, blessings! ♥

  8. Hi JBRm
    I have been through it but with no adverse effects, thank the Lord. However, my memory sometimes is all over the place. I think sometimes it is because the older I get the more I find myself doing the things that I love doing and my head gets filled with so much. Sometimes I go into another room and forget what I went there for. Then I have to go back into the room where I was when I thought of what I wanted to do, and what I was going to do nearly always drops into my head, as if I left the thought behind where it originated. I shall have to get a mobile brain to backup my files eh?. I pray that the Lord will swiftly bring you through this menopause and take away these adverse symptoms. God bless

  9. Hi Grace,
    I think I mentioned to you last year that I'm all
    messed up :) I haven't gone through actual menopause yet but I have all kinds of weird symptoms like spaciness, hot flashes, insomnia, etc...

    Unpleasant to say the least! (Please oh please, I hope it doesn't get worse :(

    Like you, sometimes I forget what I'm doing right while I'm doing it! Yikes!! Randy and Michaela have to remind me about everything. I feel anxious and grumpy a lot also. I was telling my sister today that I just want it finished.

    Hugs to you, my friend. May Our Lord ease your symptoms (and mine too).

  10. Hmmm, could that be part of my problem. Lately I have more incidences of forgetfulness. I've been attributing it to stress though.

  11. Yes, going through menopause did cause me to have some problems with being easily distracted and having days when it was hard to focus. I write myself a lot of notes to help me remember things I need to get done. I'm sorry to hear you struggle with similar troubles, but I like the way you have found some solutions to help you.