and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!
Sunday, March 17, 2013
TRAPS OF REMINDERS
I reach out to the ones that suffer like I do.
I believe when I shared over a year ago that I was beginning to go through menopause that some of you shared your struggles as well with this part of life.
Well, in a years time, my memory or lack there of has decreased. I could be talking to someone and then walk away. Only to find out if you would ask me what we talked about, on a good day, I would be able to tell you bits and pieces. But not really much detail. This frustrates me now. And is embarrassing when I try and recall something a few minutes earlier.
Grant it, I have always struggled with memory recall, due to my abuse and shutting down. But the onset of menopause this past year has made it even worse it seems.
A lady I once knew, who went through menopause, told me that one of the worst things she suffered was her short term memory. I chuckled at that at first. Now, I know what she meant.
Even when someone is talking to me and a thought comes in my mind to for a response, now I forget. I never use to forget. So, I try and repeate in my mind what I want to say at the same time trying to listen to what they are saying.
I used to be really conscience of my surroundings and what I was doing. Now, when I start a project like cleaning up after myself, I will walk away and do another project, only to leave that one, and forget about the first one and the second one. Only to return a half hour later to the first one by chance and say to myself, "Oh, I forgot about this. I cannot believe I did not do this?"
So, what I do now, when I start something, I either say what I need to do out loud repeatedly to myself at the moment. Otherwise I will forget. Another plan I have come up with is when I am at home, knowing most probably the scenario these days with my memory, will be me walking away from an uncompleted chore, and if I am conscience enough to know I am walking away from unfinished business, I will then either leave a light on near the site, or pull out a chair in the hallway near what I was trying to do to make me wonder the next time I see these traps of reminders..... "Why did I do that?" Then I find out why as I walk towards the traps I set for myself. Because of an unfinished "whatever" I was doing......
Any of you who have gone through or know someone who as gone through menopause had similar symptoms? Just curious. Thanks.