and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!
Sunday, May 19, 2013
EMOTIONS ARE SLOWLY CATCHING UP
After learning on Wednesday that my old job from six years ago rehired me to start the first week of June, I showed little emotion. If anything fear and uncertainty.
From my last post you will see that I more than likely shut down the year and a half I was unemployed. Giving way to satan's attack on my physical body. Because really I had not prayed ferventanly for a job. Even though I knew I needed one badly as my money was running out. The enemy had me sooooo preoccupied with fear my health issues.
I am realizing soooo much now, that this job opportunity is of God. I could not have even thought of the scenario that my Heavenly Daddy let play out.
Even though I contacted them over a year a go just to see if there was any position available, I was told, "no that everyone is happy right where they are." So, I figured 'okay I did my part. End of the story.' I basically forgot about them.
But, God did not.
So you can imagine when I received a message on my recorder from them last Tuesday that they were interested in me when the Administrative Assistant gave her notice and hoped that I was still available from a year ago, to come in and meet with them.
As I sat at the table with my old bosses shooting the breeze and them telling me how much they were shocked and devastated the first time I left, I still could not feel good about myself. That they actually appreciated me and I was the first one on their mind to contact. It was like I was fighting these feelings that "I Am Entitled" to have. I would not let myself be happy. What is with that?
After a few days of letting this whole thing sink in now, I realize just how divinely planned this was. As I stated earlier, I was not really seriously praying for a job. But God took the initiative and had the job look for me. He really saved me heart ache, time, drug tests, background checks, computer knowledge tests, and whatever else they do these days when applying for a job. Here, I can just go right into my old job without any hassle. Already knowing how my bosses are and their quirks and boiling points.
Thank You Heavenly Daddy for Providing For Me Always! You Are Good!