"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Thursday, May 16, 2013

REACTION-LESS



After literally a year and a half without a job, God provided a job for me yesterday.

How I got this job is "Only a God Thing."

About a year ago when I first became unemployed, I contacted my past job positions. Covering all bases. Leaving no stone unturned.

Some of my past places I really had to humble myself to contact. But, when you are desperate you push past strife memories and swallow whatever pride you had and take whatever rejection may come your way.

Well, two days ago I get a phone message from one of the places that I left for the place that let me go a year and a half ago saying for me to call them. Hmmmmm........

It was one of the CPA firms I enjoyed working for but in my present state of mind at the time, I found it hard for me to stay at a job for more than a year out of boredom and emotional pain that was not dealt with at the time. I was not seeking counseling at this time.

Anyway, the boss remembered I was looking for a job, via my email to one of the other employees there that I stated above, and when the girl who replaced me gave her notice, I was the first person that came to mind to contact to see if I was still available and interested.

Mind you satan tried to abort them contacting me as; (1) they lost my email address from a year ago due to a computer crash; (2) they did not have my file on record as it has been six years that I left and my file was stored somewhere in the warehouse; so they brain stormed and took a chance and Googled me on the internet and wa-la there I was. Phone number and all.

So, to say the least, I will be fully employed the first week of June. Thank You Lord!

Now, for my reaction to what should be good news..... Sure I can say I was releaved. As I was Big Time! But you would never know it.

You know something is wrong when your therapist is more excited than you are for getting the job. My therapist caught on.

What I discovered was while unemployed I went into survival mode of some kind. I am slowly coming out of it now, I believe.

Even though I do not recall how I shut down in the past as a little girl in order to survive the pain, I know somehow God created a safety mechanism of survival in our bodies to obtain when the emotional pain is too much and unbearable. In order to function some how. Even if it is without feeling.

I chose to shut off to protect myself. In the past when I did this I had no counseling and was not able to talk things out. This time, though still traumatic what I went through this year and a half, I was able to talk things out. Still, my body and mind chose to shut down a bit. But, is now on the rebound to recovery! Amen.

22 comments:

  1. How wonderful for you. It was just meant to be.

    Make sure to take care of yourself change is stressful even if it is good change.

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  2. JBR that pic is priceless. Sets the mood of your reactionless feelings. Which are understandable. Let the feelings catch up. So happy for your job situation. From some of your past post I know this weighed heavy on you. God Bless.

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  3. What a wonderful testimony of healing and redemption this is. God had you in that little cocoon this last year and a half so He could do the work of healing in you. All in His timing~

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  4. Congratulation. That is really a good news:)

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  5. Praise GOD!! Congrats!

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  6. Congratulations, Grace! That's great news!

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  7. AnonymousMay 16, 2013

    HAPPY FOR YOU GETTING A JOB AND ONE THAT YOU KNOW ALL ABOUT. HOPE-FULLY YOUR FEELINGS WILL CATCH UP TO YOUR HEART AND YOU CAN FEEL THE EXCITEMENT ONCE AGAIN.

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  8. Congratulations on the job, Grace! I send a prayer up for you, in hopes that the transition will be on the easier side for you. Big hugs!

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  9. Hi - one foot in front of the other, forge on. You are wonderful and strong and able.
    Love Gail
    peace....

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  10. This is great news! I know all about the shut down mode...They must have really wanted you back to have gone through all of that...Thank God for the internet!
    ~Blessings and love~ Lisa

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  11. Congratulations and Praise the Lord! How fabulous that you have been transformed and you can see the difference from before. I'm rejoicing with you on many accounts.

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  12. So glad.to hear about His gift for you... To get that job back...With me, I am also grateful for all of His provisions but there comes a time when unfair practices from work and EEOC makes me.upset. And I believe He's teaching me to always trust in His perfect timing. Congratulations JBR and may you always be strong in the Lord's power!

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  13. Congratulations...this is good news!

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  14. Wonderful news JBR,
    As for the delay, satan can only hinder. He can not prevent what God has in store for us from coming to pass, and the timing will have been worked into God's plan.

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  15. Praise God! It is awesome to see how God has been providing for you and giving you ample time to meet with Him. I love how He opened this door for you which nobody else could close! I will pray for you as you embark on this new season! I am excited for you! Many blessings, Shana

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  16. This is fantastic news. I am so happy for you. Just look what God has given to you!!!! Recovery is a beautiful word and I'm glad you have come so far.
    Best of luck to you. ((HUGS))

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  17. Excellent news, Grace! Praise The Lord!

    Much love
    C

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  18. Oh Grace, this is wonderful news! I am so happy for you for this new opportunity and also for continued recovery! Wishing you all the best at your new (or should I say old?) job. :-) Hugs to you!

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  19. Such wonderful news! So happy for you! What a blessing :-)

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  20. Happy to hear this testament of God's favor and provision Grace.

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  21. Hey...a hugh congrats. I think you probably needed the time off and now it sounds like you're ready to get back in there. Way to go.

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