"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Wednesday, June 19, 2013


Fear is exhausting.

The effects can NOT only break you down emotionally but physically. I am tired and justifibly angry with my past.

Eventually will get to the point of forgiveness and move on and be set free. Daddy set me free from the fear of bondage!

Right now I am going through the anger part and I feel so emotionally and physically dead from the constant weight of fear of man.

I have been shut down most my life from emotional trauma. It has taken me close to five years now of therapy to finally get to the place of putting the blame onto the right people and believe it now!

Only by God's Grace I get through a day.


  1. I can't imagine the weight all these had on you growing up and still haunt you at times. I'm just grateful for the Lord's love, mercy and grace or else all of us have no hope. Stay strong JBR!!!

  2. AnonymousJune 19, 2013

    Lovely picture JBR! Yeah fear is really tiring on the body. I think I'm going through the stage of anger myself. Only Daddy can heal those broken parts! Hugs and bleasings!

  3. AnonymousJune 19, 2013

    JBR yes Only by the grace of God. He's the only one that has the set plan for your life. He'll guide and direct you. God Bless.

  4. Going back to work would bring fear to the surface for you. I understand completely. Fear is a horrible emotion to deal with day in and day out. May God strengthen you and give you tons of grace.

  5. Praying you through this dear one.

    Praying and praying,

  6. Hi JBR,
    I pray that the Lord gives you peace and brings you to a place of forgiveness so that you are able to move on.
    God bless,

  7. Praying for you my friend.

  8. AnonymousJune 20, 2013

    I know this all to well my friend. Healing will come in time and at the right appropriate time. Hang in there.

  9. Glad i visited your blog. You are so strong and i really believe you will not just get through but will by His grace dance.Like you said, one day at a time.
    Will definitely pop in and say hello more often.

  10. Hi Grace. I'm catching up on reading your blog tonight.

    I can understand why all those "shoulds" from your Mom would upset you and wear you down. I think it would affect anyone that way.

    As for your fear and pain, I continue to wish you peace and am sending up a prayer for you. You have been through way too much, but you are making progress toward healing. Bless you, dear.