Ever since June when I accepted the job that I once left seven years ago for reasons that I was stressed out and very unhappy with the people I worked with.
I am at a place once again that I am really struggling. I took the job out of desperation. Grant it God provided this job right at the right time. My unemployment was just running out. I was unemployed for close to two years. And really blindsighted with why I left the comopany in the first place. Out of blue they called me up seeing if I wanted my old job back because the person that replaced me decided to retire. Only to find out she had enough. The stress and demand was too much for her. She got physically sick and emotionally drained. That is why I more or less left after a year. The stress and demand was too much. The people are not the greatest either.
In the seven years of my absence, I have found out in six months since I have returned the added demands on my position. And it is NOT even the height of the busy season for me. The company plans on adding another boss in the next few weeks. Which will only increase more my responsibility. There are days I cannot even think straight. As I am pulled constantly off of this project to do that project to trouble shoot something I have no clue about, etc. Making my position even more demanding.
Okay enough of the ground work and I really get disgusted even talking or thinking about the place.
I ask any who will faithfully pray for me daily for direction. I have been praying basically the following prayer below. I share as a guideline. But, you can pray however you want. God hears a fervent heart.
I would like faithful prayer warriors. I am tired, extremely exhaused and serious for God's leading. I will share that I am NOT fulfilling my destinty that He had planned for me from day one. I feel the enemy is really prevelant in fighting me on my future.
As you will see in the prayer I do not always have to depend on a paycheck to be blessed by the Lord. That is scary. But, that is faith and trust! As my flesh fears how can I eat and pay my bills without a pay check Daddy???
Anyway I appreciate your prayers. And if any of you have insight or if the Lord has shared some thing with you about "my situation," please feel free to share. Sharing is good. I will pray about anything that is shared.
Also, one last thing. My mum is really not doing well. Spoke with her tonight. Did not sound good. Some days she is better. So this concerns me as well. That may be another directiont he Lord may take me down in the days ahead. To quit and take care of my mum. I do not know. Anyway....thank you.
Our Heavenly Father is very interested in you and desires the very best for you. It is His will that you prosper and be in health as your soul prospers (III John 1). Be aware that God is not limited to meet your need or bless you through a paycheck, although He can certainly use a paycheck to do so. Always remember that God is your source and you are His very own child.
Keep the Word first place in your life. Do what God told Joshua in Joshua 1:8: “This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success.”
We join our faith with yours as you pray this prayer:
“Father, in Jesus’ Name, I seek Your wisdom and trust You to direct me in seeking the job that is best for me. I will walk in mercy and truth and lean not unto my own understanding. Thank You for opening wide a door which no man can shut and for giving me favor.
“It is my desire, Father, to be debt-free and owe no man anything except to love him, according to Your Word. I am willing to work with my own hands, so that I lack nothing. I praise You that it is Your will that I am self-sufficient financially and have an abundance to meet all of my needs, with enough left over to give generously to others.
“I will not fret or have anxiety about anything, Father, for Your peace mounts guard over my heart and mind. Because You are my source, I have confidence, comfort and encouragement in Your provision. I thank You, Father, for supplying my need of employment according to Your riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!