I tried running for years. I changed like a camelion and became what others wanted me to be in order to feel accepted. I changed playgrounds and places, but always ended up worse off than when I began running in the first place. I hid. I reverted. I died inside.
It was not until God stopped me right where I was at. When I became real. With no where to turn, that I finally chose to face the problems head on that I carried myself for sooooo many years! The hurt, the shame, the abuse, the rejection, the neglect, the abandonment, the painful memories.
Although it was one of the most painful and fearful times of my life, I can honestly say that I am more grateful for that moment than I can express in words.
Do not run from your problems, because the core of the problems lays within you and no matter how far away you go, YOU ARE STILL THERE, therefore the problem still exists.
thank you Grace. <3
ReplyDeleteneeded this... Thank you.
ReplyDeleteLoving who we are as we are is a difficult process. We judge ourselves as other people judge us instead of loving ourselves the way God loves us unconditionally. Nice post.
ReplyDeleteI'm truly happy for you that you've come to where you are today. Not an easy feat.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, changing our physical location will not remove our internal conflict... How can something so simple be so hard to understand. Yet it is.
Such wonderful words of wisdom given from one who is learning so much.
ReplyDeleteHugs and love my friend. :)
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Amen, so true.
ReplyDeleteWonderful post, Grace. We are all works in progress, aren't we, with problems to face. Inspiring words. Wishing you a good week. :)
ReplyDeletewhat a great reminder! needed this. thank you.
ReplyDeleteblessings!
Great advice, JBR. It was a huge revelation and shock to learn in treatment for OCD/anxiety that I had spent my life running away from my feelings. I had absolutely no idea that was what I was doing. Facing it was brutal, but I'm so glad I finally did. It changed my life. I still have to be careful and make sure that I stay on top of it though. It's easy to fall into old patterns. Thanks for the reminder!
ReplyDeleteWell said!
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