"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Thursday, April 09, 2009


Well, it is Thursday, and that means……. Group Night!

Yes, even before the holidays, we are meeting, no taking a break! Fine with me. That means I take my “real self” as I know it, through out the day into a safe environment and digest not only what I am dealing with, but what others alike are dealing with and process and apply.

So, I know it will be a long and intense day and night for me. I am sure, as always, I will walk away from there with some bit of “hope.” Yes, I actually used the word “hope” as I need to now! After all that is part of my healing is to have hope! The hope of getting in touch with my pain (ugh) and feelings. The hope of finally breaking through to freedom and experiencing joy!!

With that being said, I want to leave you all with a little excerpt taken from a recovery devotional:

Sometimes it can seem that all there is to life is grief. We face painful realities and allow ourselves to feel the painful feelings. But grief is only for a season. There will come a season for joy. In fact one of the most surprising things about the recovery process is that as we grow in our capacity for experiencing deep emotional pain we also enlarge our capacity for experiencing joy. Recovery is not just about learning to experience unpleasant emotions. It is about learning to feel the full range of life's emotions.


  1. grief seems our life, yet in this passover night does there lie hope in someone else? this is our pondering right now

  2. "To everything there is a season."
    Thank you for reminding us.

  3. Jumping-I certainly can understand your grief dear one and your pain and the comfort to your soul. I hear you!

  4. Ana, thank you for sharing from Ecclesiastes 3. Blessings!

  5. That brought to mind Ecclesiastes too. I hope your group goes well.

  6. stuck-in-the-middleApril 09, 2009

    I hope you get through the day ok adn tonight.

  7. AD-Thank you. Something is stirring within me this day that I feel uncomfortable with. In time, I am sure 'it' will be revealed.
    Stuck-Thank you too.

  8. good luck on the next so-many hours...

  9. I ran all my life from the pain and other negative feelings I did not wish to experience. I ran right into a bottle.

    When I stopped running, I had to feel.....oh, horror. But I did not have to do it alone and those who met me at the doors of Alcoholics Anonymous had plenty of hope to share with me.

    Slowly, but surely, I changed. I became able to be aware of my feelings, accept them, and when need be, take action to change them.

    God is good. Thank God for our program.

  10. PG-Thank you for sharing your pain and your struggle to recovery.  Encouraging!  Yes, thank God for your program!Shadow-Thank you for the encouraging words!

  11. I just love your daily devotionals...but i would love to get to know "you" better!

    Love, Z

  12. Hey, you used the "H" word: Hope!

    When anyone asks me, "How are you today?" I answer immediately--GREAT! This is a habit, my "always" answer. Long ago, someone advised I do that, and even if at that moment I was a bit 'down'...when I said enthusiastically, "GREAT!" it lifted me up.

    So keep on using the "H" word. For me. For YOU!

  13. you are doing so well...so proud of you....

  14. Thankyou for visiting my blog...and your kind words. I am still so hesitant with all of this blogging stuff....but it really does help.

    I see we have some things in common. I will be visiting you often.



  15. Casey-Appreciate your visit thank you!
    Rainbow-Thank you for your encouragement.
    Stevie-Will certainly make an effort!
    Zena-Glad you benefit from the devo. In time as I progress, I am sure you will learn more about me here. Thanks for inquiring.

  16. Hi again

    Loved the bit about feeling the full range of emotions. Although my emotions tend mainly to be negative I am now experiencing other emotions as well.

    May God Bless you this Easter


  17. Ambersun-Full range of emotions is the gammit! I am certainly there with you when it comes to experiencing those other emotions. Gonna have to let them happen and the key is to work on them to process properly. Hard, I know, but that is the goal dear one.
    Kind wishes to you at Eastertime also.