"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009


Tears are flowing frequently this evening. Does not take much for me to get them going with bouts of sadness of thoughts from my upbringing and the results of the emotional pain. All during the day I would have my bouts of anguish and then would try and dash off to a secluded place at my work and have a brief cry. I could not wait to get home tonight, away from everyone and just let the pain flow freely. I am exhausted.....


  1. allow your grief to come and keep writing about it....you are being heard by us.

  2. hey. I am sorry for what you are feeling. please take care of you...i saw shadow gave you the award. you deserve it. thanks for being my friend. here and ....in my closet ♥

  3. oopsie....me again. hugs. please take care...

  4. Hey,we all go through this,and we are here for you.

  5. AnonymousMay 20, 2009

    Hugs and Blessings as you walk through the valley (((JBR))) I pray that God's presence surrounds you like a warm blanket.

  6. Crying can be very therapeutic, it helps release all that pain. Treat yourself kindly. (((JBR)))

  7. Hi Sweetie! Look at it this way...you are one day closer to finally being free and God is collecting each and everyone of your tears - none are a waste.

    Tears are cleansing to your body and actually release toxins in your cells. Of course they also help emotionally to let go of built up pressure, anxiety, pain, etc.

    I am so proud of you each and everyday - keep pressing into God, He will lead you to your unique healing made just for you!

  8. I am so sorry to read about your painful life. I know GOD has a plan for you, just keep reaching out for him. Once we decide to give our lives to him, it sometimes gets harder...the devil is fighting for control.

    May I suggest that when the bad thoughts start, to replace them with good thoughs of GOD's Love for you, read your Bible for inspiration. Psalms is a good place to start.

    I hope you feel better very soon. God Bless.

  9. FYI: Some of you may be experiencing an error code when you come onto my blog "Operation Aborted" and you lose the page. If you hit the back button until it clears the stupid doo-hicky you should be okay. This does NOT make me happy....There is some glich now with IE. Sorry....

    Amusing Bunni-Thank you not only for your visit but for your suggestion of replacing the bad with the good. so very true.

    Lindylou-Thank you Lindylou for your words of encouragement and I totally agree with the cleansing of the toxins. I have a lot of toxins that will need to be released in the upcoming days.

    AD-Agreed! Feel better after a cry until the next time.

    FF-Appreciate the warm blanket from Gods presence!! Appreciate the hugs also!!!

    Mike-Thank you for understanding.

    Mile-Thanks for your support even during your struggles.

    Noelle-I will try my best to journel here as much as I am able. Was difficult to respond back tonight, but I did...Now off to Zzzzzzzz

  10. I'm sorry for your sadness. Sometimes we need to honor the depth of our injuries.

    Thankfully, God blesses us with healing tears to wash away the pain.

    Many blessings!

  11. my heart hurts as I read your words.

  12. emotinal wreckage is what we call it

  13. :~(
    Me too...., JBR, me too... Wishing you clarity & strength!
    ~ Gracie

  14. We would never understand the amount of pain you're in but if it helps to know that we are sharing that pain with you, we are here to listen...lifting you up in prayers. Keep trusting on the Lord.

  15. Sorry about your pain but know it's something that needs to be done. All the best.

  16. Just Be Real, I am sorry for your pain. I pray that your tears are healing tears.

  17. exhausting yes. yet i find tears so cleaning.

  18. Shadow-This is all a learning process for me.

    Colleen – Yes, they are healing tears!

    Srawberry - Thank you for your encouragment.

    Rcubes-So much appreciate your words, thank you.

    Saving Grace - Oh soo good to see you dear! (((hug))

    JIP - Like the terminology.

    Airman Mom - Thank you.

    Nancy - Appreciate your words and encouragment, thank you.

    Really feel out of sorts today. I wish I could go into hibernation for a month. Pray things improve.

  19. Keep posting sweet friend. We hear you and our Heavenly Father has HIS arms tightly wrapped around you. He is the great redeemer of all circumstances and the author of new beginnings.

    Hugs and prayers, andrea

  20. stuck-in-the-middleMay 21, 2009

    ((((((JBR)))))) You haang in there girl!

  21. There is gain in pain. Sorry you have to experience the pain. You have quite a following of supporters here cheering you on. Encouragement is so beneficial to recovery and I am here also to do such.

  22. Get it out, so that you can move past it.

  23. Hey. Just checking on you. Sorry for what you are going through. I do hope that you are having a better moment. Do not give your future, your now, to the past. Do not let it have one more of your moments. The future, and now, is yours, not theirs....you are so strong, so sweet. Please take care of you. I will check back in. I know that pain, that despair. It is suffocating. The things I am saying to you here, I should be saying to myself. Thanks Real, for really being there.


  24. Sorry you are feeling so low. HUGS

  25. You can do all things through Christ Jesus who gives you the strength to make it through each and everyday.. He is your present help in the time of need.. He is there with you .. He will never leave you or forsake you.. Maybe people did in your life But Christ Jesus will never leave you.. May you feel his presence in your life today..

  26. we so sorry you hurt....our eyes are all swollen...from crying....but Doc said good to get it all out....been held in too long...love you


  27. I know it is tough . . . you will get to the other side, I promise. Hang in there, girl.

    - Marie (Coming Out of the Trees)

  28. Thank you all once again. Would respond individually, but just too tired....sorry...

  29. I am sad that you are sad :(

  30. Tears are healing. Let them fall freely.

  31. Tabs and Tea, thank you for your kindness.