"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Sunday, June 28, 2009


Seems I have been out of commission for a few days emotionally. At this point of my journey, I feel it is more between God and me.

The hurts, tears, frustrations, dreams, beliefs, questions, doubts, reasonings that I am having now are so locked up inside my head/heart that there is no way I could even put into words what I am feeling and relay it to another human being. Inside I know what is going on, and it is so unbelievably crystal clear, it is amazing....but becomes overwhelming to try and express exactly what I am experiencing within with words. There are NO words!!!! That is why I know only God at this time has to actually heal this particular pain of mine. Not saying that God cannot heal all our pain and bless us with others to help us along with wonderful encouragement (thank you all), but I sense in my spirit this time for me is between God and myself. Only He can show and walk with me exactly what needs to be done. After all He created us, so He should have no problem figuring out what is going on in my head/heart.


  1. Be physically open to connecting -- when I need to do this I lie on my back, completely vulnerable, with my palms up, ready to connect...hope you are feeling it soon.

  2. You have hit the nail on the head. Some years ago when I was working thru past painful events, GOD revealed these same truths to me...I am teary reading your post, b/c it is almost word for word from my memory. Somethings are too deep and only for GOD's eyes! HE is the ultimate physician and truly only HE can heal and restore your heart.
    GOD BLESS YOU...continuing to pray, andrea

  3. AnonymousJune 28, 2009

    I can't remember if I've said this already, but have your tried acupuncture? It has been really really good for my spirit.

  4. AnonymousJune 28, 2009

    I know what you are talking about, and there are times when it is best not to try to explain things to anyone. In time, you will find the answers you need. And some things we may never know here, but we can trust that He will show us all we need to know.


  5. JBR, missed u over the last two days. A bit wooried also. You are going through something I cnannot relate too. so I wish all will work out the way it is supposed to be. Thinkin go you and keep you in my thoughts. Ton of hugs

  6. JBR- there are times we have to strip ourselves bare and put aside our works that He might work in us. A good thing is to fast. Not talking about food, but from whatever things come between our fellowship with Him. A busy mind often corrupts the fellowship of the Spirit. Take care, ~rick

  7. Being able to recognize the feelings inside is a huge step in later being able to communicate those to other people. You are doing an amazing job whether you realize it or not.

  8. May you bask in His love as you present yourself to Him. God bless you JBR and may the Lord continue to guide your steps toward healing.

  9. So glad to see you resurface once again. I kind of can relate to what your saying with finding it difficult to share some deep hurts. Your an inspiration to many.

  10. Well, I have to Be real here--true to myself--and you, JBR.

    Seldom does God talk or give His expression directly to me. God uses other people to 'talk' His words to me. That is why He CREATED other people, to help me--AND YOU! And for us to help them!!!

    So, please if you must keep it to yourself, be open to what others say on here...especially the ones who don't just give platitudes. You need help! (Whisper--and so do we all...) and turning inward does not seem to be working, so try (I said TRY) turning outward again, give it a chance.

    You may not realize that probably three-fourths of the Peeps here have been through the same (whatever) you are experiencing. Funny how we all think we're so unique when, as humans, we've all got the same wants, desires, needs, loves, and hates as the next human. Wow that's enough from me, Steve, who sends his love with this message.

  11. Thank you all again.

    **Stevie, you need to pay more attention to what I am saying here. I am not shutting anyone out! There are certain things that only God i.e. Holy Spirit can do other than a human being, and that is where I am at this point on some areas of my journey. And I am certainly not going to get in His way!**

  12. wishing you peace,hugs my friend.

  13. I wanted to stop by and thank you for adding your self as a follower to my blog. I will add myself to yours as well. I will be reading your previous posts and am looking forward to becoming better acquainted with you.

  14. JBR - I know there have been a few times when I could not put into words for you or even for me the pain and confusion I was feeling.

    I remember one time probably 23 years ago, I just got into bed one night and begged God to heal my pain and confusion. I prayed that I knew the Holy Spirit knew exactly what was wrong and what needed healing and had the power to do so. I fell asleep and in the morning it was 'gone' - gone and beyond my mind entirely. I never did know exactly what was wrong, but I do know God took it from me.

    I will never forget that instance of God's grace.

    Prayer Girl

  15. P.S.
    Thanks for your comments on my blog and thanks for sharing your six words with me.


  16. Thank you for posting this, JBR!
    Sometimes, indeed, there are no words. There is only reaching out, confident of God's healing grace.

  17. He knows already, dear one, and is with you every step of the way. I believe no one BUT God can feel exactly what we feel. Keep the faith, but then, I know you are.


  18. I am currently working the third step in my 12-step program (CoDA). Everything you wrote here feels completely relevent to what I am trying to understand in working this step.

    Letting Go and Letting God
    Trust that God will be there

    These are things I am trying/starting to believe and understand.

    Thanks for a great post.

  19. A great big amen to that sweetie.

  20. It’s ok to take a few days off and settle. A journey is just that, a journey not a sprint.

  21. I too wish you peace, happiness and joys

  22. feeling it and knowing it is just as good as saying it. *hugs*

  23. "'Cause I just wanna be lonely tonight
    Just me and my maker in this cold moon light"
    - Matt Wertz (Lonely Tonight)