WRESTLING ALONG WITH GOD

These past few days while I chose to be away from the blogasphere world, but appreciated so much everyone’s prayers and support, I have been wresting along with God. Below are excerpts taken from one of renowned author and speaker, Beth Moore’s transcripts to a live audience that explains as closely to what I am going through. Maybe you could relate also:

Beth: Make no mistake, it is intimacy with God when you are willing to wrestle something out with him.

Listen, there is not much more intimate than wrestling because do you know what it takes to wrestle? You and I would have to be in a complete embrace. I mean it might be that we are struggling against it, that we're fighting, we're pleading, and the tears are streaming down our cheeks but we are close. You cannot wrestle with a soul you are not close to. You are physically -- your proximity -- you are against their very person.

Listen, I'm not sure you're ever closer to God than when you are wrestling something out. Stay in there with him.

Some of us have let go, we have let go too fast. The blessing will come but you must not let go. Whatever you do, you must not let go. You must hang onto God, wrestle it through. Say what you've got to say, cry, plead, ask why. Say how upset you are, but you do not let go.

When you say, "I'm not going to let go, I'm not going to let go no matter what, no matter how the enemy tempts me to walk away from my faith, I will not let go because I will, after this pain, hang in and get my blessing!" Anybody know what I'm talking about?

Say you let go. You know the beauty of God? He is still there. Grab back on. Tell him, I let go too soon. No blessing came out of it at all, Lord! No blessing!

You may say, "Beth, there is no way a blessing can come out of a background of abuse."

I beg to differ. True ministry and compassion and humility of sorts came out of that very background for me. I don't want it for anybody but I'm saying, did God turn it into a blessing? Oh, yes! Oh, yes! He brought my life passion from my life pain. Yes!

Listen -- listen -- through the worst of our struggles it will be through wrestling the hardest things we ever go through in life, wrestling those things out with God that we come out on the other side walking in our identity. It will happen every single time. That's going to be how it happens.

Remember when I shared a few posts back where I could not explain exactly what I was feeling because it was just too deep and there were no words for it, and only God could understand...... well the wrestling is more or less what I was emotionally feeling.

The picture above could not be more accurate with the intense bouts of grieving that has reached the depths of my soul lately. I do realize my pain is not over yet and as hard as the road still may be ahead for me with facing certain fears and dealing with issues, I am willing to journey on.

Whatever struggles you are experiencing and for those of us who have been sexually abused, there is hope. Beth is a living testimony of that.

Please take comfort in the words above, I do.