"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Monday, August 31, 2009


Being that I am some what a control freak in many areas of my life. Have to have somewhat of set schedule/plan in place and I am one that anticipates possibilities of problems down the line (makes my mind work over time and mentally become exhausted) not just in my work but in life too, and think of solutions way-a-head of time if need be. Takes a lot of mental work to do this, but it has always been a part of me. Always anticipating "what could happen." I have been praying this past weekend (that was the anxiousness and stirring I felt the Lord doing in me), that come Monday to begin to try and give my anxious thoughts over to the Lord. Even if it is just one item a day, to at least start there. No matter how significant.

Well, it certainly was hard!!! I wanted to worry. I did not want to wait. I did not want to pray further. I wanted to do it my way, right now, right then!! The Lord continued to get my attention through out the day! When this happened, I made it a point to be mindful and slow down.

Kept on telling myself, “JBR slow down, chill out, it is not worth it to get bent out of shape, breathe, breathe, breathe.”

I even have to apply this to my driving. That is a hard one, as 'everyone' in my eyes is just tooooooo slow!!! And I am in a hurry to get no where. Does not make sense, but hey you are dealing with someone who is in recovery, so it does make sense!

So, that was my start for Monday in relinquishing my troubled/anxious mind over to the Lord.

Tomorrow, my busiest day of the week and shortest at work, will be the ultimate challenge. He and I will have a go at this again.


  1. You go girl, give those anxious thoughts over to Jesus. Breathe in Jesus, breathe out stress. I love you.

  2. And you can trust that He is always there with you...Breathe....the Air Who is in you...and Who is greater than the one who is in the world.

  3. Thank you Rcubes and Denise.

    It is like I have all this anxious energy (which started over the w/e). One clue that I am extreme with this is that I am blogging way too much. Not that is a bad thing, but it is like I have to release all this energy out somewhere and blogging is an active way of doing it and I seem I am just blogging excessively! That is why I need to force myself back into my walking routine or something to let out all this energy!

  4. Sounds like a challenge that could keep you occupied for the rest of your life, especially on those busy days. It is so cool to run across a person who can stay truly calm and gracious in the middle of a storm.

  5. I used to be this way. Now, I wait for the problem then line up 10 solutions and grab the best one. I used to drive fast too. But then realized, living wasn't so bad and why risk the accident. I think age and accepting myself is what had the most to do with it. It's a very hard habit to break... i'm working on it still. :)

  6. Like what you said Stitch. That is my goal is to try and not predict an outcome, but let the outcome come to me, then worry about it. All in God's timing. He will supply the answer, not me!

    Madision, good to see you again! Missed ya! Thank you for your comment. Yep, a challenge in deed. Never looked at it that way, as it was just part of my life.

  7. Most of the stuff we worry about will never happen. It's better to just let Jesus handle it. It much easier for me to tell you this than to do it myself. Breathing is always good to slow us down. You have such strong faith. I know you will do well. One moment at a time.

  8. Wanda, yes I know this. I have always known this. Some days are better than others in trusting. Thanks for sharing!

  9. Breathe Jesus in and out - reminds you he is with you.

  10. ...keeping you in my thoughts each day.. sending you good positive energy. :)

  11. Appreciate you Colleen and Ms. Hen. Thank you!

  12. JBR< just keep giving it over to God and His son Jesus.thay love and care for you.Just keep telling your self I can't But they can! It works for me.

  13. Giving up control is one of the toughest parts of the healing process. There is a whole section in the book about this! It was a survival skill and as we progress we don't need it anymore.

    I know all to well it is so hard to let go of. I still struggle with this every now and again. You feel like you have nothing left to hold onto. Just take a deep breath and relax.

  14. I know this to well the desire to want to do it my way myself.

  15. Breath and take things daily as they come. good that your giving up control to Jesus. God bless.

  16. Thank you to all who responded during the night. Blessings.

  17. stuck-in-the-middleSeptember 01, 2009

    Praying for you today tha it will be a easy day for you JBR! Hang in there!


    "The most important thing is practice in daily life; then you can know gradually the true value of religion. Doctrine is not meant for mere knowledge, but for the improvement of our minds. In order to do that, it must be part of our life. If you put religious doctrine in a building and when you leave the building depart from the practices, you cannot gain its value."
    His Holiness the Dalai Lama

    The important word from this present day sage is PRACTICE. To gain silence in the mind you have to practice silence in the mind. Is it easy? No not at first but like with all things we practice, both the good and the ill, it becomes easier the more we try.

    Be Well kiddo.

  19. slow down and breathe.... if i had just 1 cent for every time i've thought or said that...

  20. I hope you're well today -- i know you said this would be a tough day for you.

    I'ma prayin for ya, right now.
    Sending a big hug,

  21. JBR,

    In order to try to eliminate those negative worries, try writing all of them down right down to the smallest detail of what you are worried about. Then get another piece of paper and write down all the things today that you are grateful for. Keep doing that as often as you think of them. Try and keep your focus on things you are grateful for, yet when a worry pops up right in down and give it to God.

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat

  22. hmmmmm. thank you for this. And your support by reading and helping me realize the things I say between the lines. thank you thank you. I hope that you will have a pleasant day. And....allow God to be the control freak in your life. love and hugs. mile

  23. Mile, that is adorable. Let God be the control freak! I love it!

    H2H appreciate making the grateful list. I know a lot bloggers to this and post their grateful lists and I am always encouraged by reading them. One day, I just need to get down and do it. Thank you.

    Susan and Stuck appreciate your prayers very much, thank you!!

    Shadow, thank you for the reminder.

    Walking man, thank you for your post.

  24. Worry, control, and impatience are all certainly stressful. I have problems with all of this as well. While the discipline and practice it takes to relinquish all of this is difficult, the freedom it will bring is well worth it. I believe in you and that you can conquer this worry and impatience. Take care! <3

  25. What a blessing it is when I can just slow down. I have improved over the years. Also less worry and anxiety. I wish I could say I was always free of anxiety, but it just ain't so.

    I am a work in progress, but it does continue to get better.

    God bless,

  26. That is a wonderful goal, and I know the Lord will help you through it.

    Just a little scripture that is encouraging to me…

    Psalm 37:5,6
    Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.

    And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.

    This sounds a bit like what you might be saying.


  27. JBR- a couple scriptures coming to mind. "Wait on the Lord, again, I say wait" and "be not anxious..." Daniel fretted for three weeks after praying only to have an angel come and tell him the prayer had been heard when he spoke it. Just took a while to let him know. Take care~rick