"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Monday, September 21, 2009

SESSION AMNESIA


Most of the time, right after a t. session while driving home, I find it difficult recalling what just took place an hour or so beforehand. Very little recollection. I have been noticing too, my drives back home that things around me appear brighter in appearance, almost blinding at times and I feel in a daze? Also, I would be waiting at a stop light, and not remembering how I ended up there. It is amazing how one’s mind can shut down and then re-start and get out of a fight or flight mode. A couple of hours later, my mind will become more clearer and I will end up remembering most things that were discussed earlier.

18 comments:

  1. Can't say I've every encountered this sort of thing. Hope things improve for you.

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  2. PeekingoutfrombehinddarkglassesSeptember 21, 2009

    Exquisite post! I would get blinding headaches the day after.

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  3. I sometimes don't know how I make it home. It's like the session has been too intense to comprehend. I think we need time to adjust and think about what has happened. Bless you my friend as you continue to heal.

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  4. I've had that sort of experience after therapy sessions too. It's nice to know I'm not the only one. =)

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  5. This was great timing for me. Today, as we finished a session of DNMS, an end to a process on a specific issue that has gone on for several hours of therapy all together, I told my therapist that I felt really out of it. I also told her I remembered saying something that felt very important, but I couldn't remember what it was. She said she thought it was when I said:
    I know the difference between loving people and needing people.
    I know that is it, but I can't seem to place the significance.
    I have had a headache all evening. Tomorrow, I will likely wake up with some feeling of clarity whether or not I remember exactly what its about. That seems to be how it works for me - on some internal level, first.

    I guess if you are feeling like that it means you have been doing something - maybe something very difficult and important. I would just honor the feelings, let yourself rest and let the process unfold.

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  6. I understand this post so well....I often sit in the parking lot after session...anywhere from 15-30 minues...to try to "collect" myself - depending on how emotional session was. There are many times I don't remember driving home. I try to journal about my session the day after - but often can't remember what happened. I go back and try to fill in the blanks...it helps me to write it out...
    I hope you get some rest...JBR.
    (((many hugs))) ~ Gracie

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  7. Hi JBR
    I am suffering from the same thing, that is why on my blog I had left a button, 'Hoping for a cure' lol.. I am suffering from anxiety right now!!
    Bear hugs and God Bless

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  8. It's kind of like a drug induced trip I used to feel. I hope your days improve with this.

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  9. I know exactly what you are talking about, especially if I end up having a panic attack in session. A daze is a good way to put it. It's like things are going in, you are able to drive, see, etc but no thoughts or ideas are going out. It's like talking on a cell phone and driving, realizing you have no idea how you ended up where you are at.

    I wish I had something to tell you that made it easier to focus in on that time, but I think it is our minds way of relieving some of the weight of the work we just did in session.

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  10. Oh I can so much relate here. Not only after formerly t. sessions but if the pain is overwhelming, I shut down completely. I feel it is my soul protecting me from have to deal with too too much at this very moment. I always called my souls selfprotection. Have a great day.

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  11. I personally think it is the door still open between what was being discussed and where it all is bubbling from. But Then I don't go to T anymore and get dissociative resonance all the time. I call it auto pilot and it is good.

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  12. the walking man said it ll. Auto pilot is a good anaology. God Bless.

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  13. I appreciate all of you sharing your experiences and thoughts on this topic.

    I know I am not alone in this!

    Lisa Marie, I like what you said, "A daze is a good way to put it. It's like things are going in, you are able to drive, see, etc but no thoughts or ideas are going out." That is a good way of sizing this experience up.

    Thank you all very much!

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  14. exactly what you've described has happened to me too...

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  15. stuck-in-the-middleSeptember 22, 2009

    Sorry you experience this pain after your session JBR. Hang in there!

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  16. JBR,

    I think it happens to all of us. It's like our brain disconnects on those rides home because we are thinking of other things and then suddenly we find ourselves pulling into the garage. Most of the time for me, it's due to talking on the phone.

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat

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  17. Asking God to help you through this sweetie.

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