"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Saturday, February 20, 2010


Most of my struggle in life is comparing myself to others. A lot of it has to do with my self of worth being beaten down over the years by my parents and then believing anyone else who spoke a negative word about me, i.e. teachers, so called friends, etc.

As I continue to heal on my recovery to freedom, and grow more intimate with Christ as best I am able, I am learning I have a unique role in the Body of Christ. That He has made me ONLY for what He had in mind for me to do. I need not be jealous of others "spiritual gifts or ministries." His plan for me is unique and perfect. Wo--- Hard for me to write these words, let alone believe them, but it is all true. Acceptance for me will have to be a constant hearing and believing in my heart over and over and over again. How many times it takes, does not matter, until eventually the truth does grab and graft itself onto and into my heart.

Perfect example of this is found in John 3:26:

"So they came to John and reported to him, Rabbi, the Man Who was with you on the other side of the Jordan. . .notice, here He is baptizing too, and everybody is flocking to Him!"

John the Baptist disciples were trying to get him to feel jealous over Jesus' own ministry. John the Baptist only means was to prepare the way before Jesus. Which he did.

So, rather than worry what others are doing, I need to be open to what God is doing with me!

This applies to all of us. We all have our unique role. I pray that if you struggle in this area that you do a self check and see what the Lord shares with you.


  1. Amen, wise words spoken here my friend.

  2. That is reassurring, of we know what our unique roll actually is.

    Good weekend I wish you!


  3. God says “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I dedicated you, a prophet to the nations I appointed you.” This is rather surprising. God knew Jeremiah before he was born. It follows that God knows all of us even before we are born. So his plan for us is unique.

  4. You are right on all counts yet it is difficult as you say to believe the worth in us when we hear the "good friends" etc say hurtful things. It is a constant struggle to believe what we should believe, that we are unique

  5. That picture is so adorable....This post is so true. It is not easy, but definitely worth it to walk in who God has made you to be.


  6. a great message to start my day...thank you.

  7. JBR may God show you your ministry your purpose. May you be open to hear his calling. God Bless.

  8. Hoping you have a great weekend JBR. You do have a unique ministry of your own, so just know that you are following the right path.

  9. Jbr, I enjoyed this post and it was very insightful. I was wondering if you have checked out Lifechurch.tv online The messages are great and the chat rooms help out a lot. I suffer form insecurities and social anxiety, This has become my main church. Give it a look see.

  10. You bring a unique perspective to life with your life experiences that is so different from anyone else's. Celebrate your uniqueness for you are one of a kind.

  11. Yes, that is so true! We look at other's ministries and feel...jealous, insecure. Does God love them more than me? These are honest struggles. But I love the fact that God doesn't love all those ministers of the gospel more than He does us. NOTHING is based on works in God's Kingdom!!!

  12. I am growing in this, but old patterns die hard!

  13. Great message. I have to remember not to "compare my insides with other people's outsides." I'm reminded of a poem I love called Desiderata. One stanza reads:

    If you compare yourself with others,
    you may become vain and bitter;
    for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.


  14. I need this reminder every day because I feel that I am so unworthy... and so unimportant... sometimes unsure of why I am here but I know that God created me for great things

  15. Thank you for this!! i especially needed to read it today. I love your blog.

  16. What a wonderful post! You are so unique! I can't even begin to describe the healing that has begun in me in reading your JBR blogs. We are not alone, and you are placed here for so many, and for this girl. Thanks. janie

  17. I am sure that you are not the only one who has had this struggle. As we try to find out way we often compare ourselves with others. The blessing comes when we find out what our assignment is and go after it full force, knowing that we are called for a particular purpose. You are growing in the journey. I am really proud of you!