"Yet, O Lord, You are our Father; we are the clay, and You our Potter, and we all are the work of Your hand." Isaiah 64:8
These past few days I have been reflecting a whole lot.
Crying. Hurting. Grieving.
Kind of expected, since last weeks t. brought out how deep my shame goes. I mean, I know I had shame, but I did not know how deep it runs.
During this time, I am trying to hold on to the promise that God has an awesome plan for me. It is very hard to believe when you are going through pain, that anything good can come out of ones journey.
I need to trust Him more than ever now!
There are things going on inside of me that I just do not understand. But I believe once I finally arrive at the place where God wants to bring me, I will see how it has prepared me for what God wanted for me all along.
Keep trusting, HE is trustworthy.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for the pain you are enduring right now. Please know I am praying.
Hugs!
Yeahm the depth of pain, shame and guilt can be staggring. Hang on, dear One, this to shall pass, it can be overcome. Sometimes the exhaustion is hard to bear and you are such an amazon to press further, to go on, to make the life you where supposed to lead. becoming yourself. Thinking of you
ReplyDeletestay strong...He wont's let you go...ever...
ReplyDeleteWhen I go through such pain, I try to remind myself that with each tear, I am getting it out. Take care dear! You grow stronger each day facing it. *hugs* <3
ReplyDeleteSweetie you inspire so many. I know it's hard for you now, but you've got God remember that.
ReplyDeleteI know that it can be frustrating. I think that sometimes we're just not quite ready to move to the next phase of our lives. Maybe there are lessons we need to grasp or whatever before we'll be ready to move on. I don't think that means that nothing's happening, though. I believe that we're exactly where we're supposed to be and that things will come together as their supposed to. Doesn't make the waiting any easier! When one door closes, another opens. It's the dark hallway in between that gets us!! Hang in there!!!
ReplyDelete...and keep blogging too, if it is helpful. Because you are helping many out here to realize what got them where they are now. God is still in charge, NMW.
ReplyDeleteOne thing is for sure, his promises are real and his word so comforting to know He will never leave you nor forsake you. Sometimes we are not fully healed or ready to come out of the prison of our past. But the Lord does not push for you to give it to him all at once. He leaves the key to your cell with you and when you are ready, you will know. For the father does all things well in his time.
ReplyDeleteyou'll understand. some time. now's not the time... hugs and love!
ReplyDeleteStay strong, JBR! I have 100% faith in your recovery. And I'm here listening to all you have to say.
ReplyDeleteWishing you well,
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Sending you virtual hugs, keep going... God is great and he WILL heal you.
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I'm thinking of you sweety and praying for God to give you more strength to get through this difficult time. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteJBR,
ReplyDeleteSending you lots of hugs...(((JBR)))
Blessings,
Tammy
I found you again! I recently when through a blog switch and I lost all my blogs I was following AND all my readers. What a nightmare, but I saw you commented on another blog and I followed you over here. :)
ReplyDelete"But I believe once I finally arrive at the place where God wants to bring me, I will see how it has prepared me for what God wanted for me all along." Thank you for this encouragement today.
Hoping you will follow me back to my blog, because I believe you were one of my readers. Looking forward to reading your post again. http://martyduane.com/
Yes.Yes.Yes! There will be a beautiful garden showing itself to you, there will be, I know this from my own life experience, and YOU WILL LOVE with a compassion like you never knew possible...YOU WILL!!!! I am so happy for your work, so glad for you doing this!
ReplyDeletesuch beauty in your reflection of self discovery. here and always. thanks for being there for me and for being real. hugs. mile
ReplyDeletePraying for His strength...to be yours...Take care JBR.
ReplyDeleteJBR I know you life is hard now. Your faith may be weak. Try not to withdraw into yourself, and close yourself to God's love. I don't think you're doing that.
ReplyDeleteI try to remember to see that no day is too long or lonely, no burden too heavy, no trial too great, because God is with me.
God Bless.
Sweet one I do not think you would be humane if there were not times you question yourself. I believe God is there even when we don't feel
ReplyDeleteHim. Hold on to your faith. You will make it.
Your doing great. Questions will always arise along with doubt. Your faith will get you through.
ReplyDeleteAmen...He does have an awesome plan for you...press on...you are not alone...
ReplyDeleteIt's encouraging to me to see hope within your pain. Tough stuff. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteYour honesty is wonderful. I wish I could be as honest and sincere. Thank you for being the real person you are. Gives me hope. Will be back to visit more often.
ReplyDeleteJBR good to see you again. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteIt is good to purge (cry/talk/etc.) ... you didn't know how deep it was until you unlocked the door, which let the flood-gates down. You will feel better every time you "release" ... my release is also crying. I go to my prayer place and I cry alone, well, not alone, I cry TO my heavenly Father. There's nothing that takes the load off like that.
ReplyDeleteLove you, JBR, and praying for continued progress. God intended you to be happy! Remember that.
(((((HUGS)))))
Yes, yes, yes!! We see dimly now but one day will see clearly. Please lift up a prayer for me and Mr. Imperfection. We are meeting with a counselor today regarding Little Miss Imperfection's stress and anxiety. ((hugs)) Sorry about the misunderstanding over the "Followers" issue...it was my own insecurity I was dealing with.
ReplyDeleteYou said it! You might not know the purpose for the time being, but in time I believe you will!
ReplyDeletePraying for you, dear one. I'm believing for that place of total freedom that you so desire deep within your soul. You can't lose with Jesus.
ReplyDeleteNever stop trusting sweetie.
ReplyDeleteJBR you bring hope to many of us. Please don't give up!!
ReplyDeleteand the thing is... all of our hope is not based on "wishful thinking", that maybe one day things will change if we are fortunate. No... our hope is based on the very God Almighty who made us, and knows us in detail, and He is the one who has promised the very change you are longing for. He is re-making and rearranging all of those places in you and in me that need His healing touch! Don't think for a minute that He's not alive and well and so able to do it all!!!
ReplyDeleteHugs JBR, I'm so proud of your faithful, diligent, purposeful walk!
Dropping by to let you know I am thinking about you, JBR. Hang in there. I am praying for you, hun!
ReplyDeleteWe have a saying in Al-Anon: "More will be revealed." I know this, God never reveals more than we can handle. In time, I'm sure all will be clear. Till then, I'll keep you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Kathy, more will be revealed, like an onion being peeled, one layer at a time. BUT, a Big BUT,in the midst of the hurting and the pain our only hope is to trust in God..and even then it's hard for me. I know I must go this next week to be with my mother for her surgery, but I am having so much anxiety about being around my day. Esp. seeing his bi-polar, insane behavior is worse and all he can think about is himself. My t. told me to take care of myself and draw lines on how much I can be around him. That sounds terrible doesn't it? Lots of guilt with this but I must. Baby steps with my prayers for you with each step you take with God holding your hand and the support of so many that love you. Janie
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