"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Saturday, June 19, 2010


These past couple of days my emotions have become much more intense. Only because of the anticipation of my brother and family and events that have unfolded while here. All for my benefit, no doubt. To become stronger in my journey, to see and feel much more. Not all is pleasant, but needed.

Even though I may complain, I see the need for what I have to go through. Only to become stronger in Him and in myself.

I am truly grateful I have become so much closer to God where I can just let loose, be my real self, crazy sounding perhaps to myself, but to Him I am not. I have accepted that fact. That is all He wants. Is the real me. Not the pretend me.

In these times of struggle there is inner healing going on. The many days, weeks, months and years of going through the emotional pain in order to heal is all part of the process.

The devotional below shares how God never tires of us. Thank you Lord, oh yes thank You, where our humanness can only take so much. Grant it we do need the support of people, but God never ever tires. Thank You Lord that You think I am NOT boring!

Let the below message be an encouragement to you to never give up and to never give up on God. Sure there may be days that you want to give up, I have had plenty, and probably will have a few more. I have had plenty of days where I am down right angry and yelling at God. But through all my mess, He is so very patient not in any kind of hurry and apparently believes in me. Believes I have potential. When I get to the point that I believe in myself, that will be victory in itself. Glorious victory!

But the one thing that I do hold on to and notice more now is the consistency of God across the board:

"The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom."
Isaiah 40:28

There are times during our struggle to heal when our emotions become intense and stay intense for what seems like a very long time. We feel like we rant and rave and weep for hour after hour, day after day. And we worry that the people in our lives who love and support us will grow tired and weary. Will we wear them out? Will they grow tired of the journey?

In those times when we fear the limits of those who love us, we need to remind ourselves that the Everlasting God does not grow tired or weary. We can pour our
heart out to God over and over again. We can rage and weep. God listens without hurry or exhaustion. God will not tire of us.

And God understands. Beyond what we can understand or fathom, God sees and knows
and understands.

We need to keep talking to the people who support us, but with an appreciation for their limits and boundaries. We also need to talk to God. We can speak our heart freely and fully to our Creator every day, every hour. God will not tire of us.

It sounds silly when I say it, Lord.
but sometimes I worry that I will wear you out.
Or bore you.
But you are Everlasting God.
Creator of the ends of the earth.
You do not grow weary.
Your understanding cannot be fathomed.
You understand.
You do not tire of me.
Thank you.

Copyright Dale and Juanita Ryan

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  1. the amaxing thing about goid is that his time for us is timeless

  2. i am finding these days of prayer between me and God are more like conversations...and of course always lifting up those i pray for. It's the smallest detail(too many to mention) where I can't find something. I'll start to go look, and the remember to show me/tell me where that "thing" is and He tells me immediately.
    I find so much maturing in your walk...even though you know what you are about to exp/walk into is going to be extremely intense, you see the need why you have to do this. THAT IS HUGE!
    I am so proud of you. love, janie

  3. Glad you are feeling better, JBR (I read your update):) The devotional shares a great message of God's unconditional love for us. "I have loved you with an everlasting love" comes to mind.

  4. AnonymousJune 19, 2010

    JBR delightful post from you during this time. You seem to be stronger. He's in you that's for sure. God Bless.

  5. I really needed to read this post today:) I'm still going through huge struggles down here and I've felt that sometimes I have worn others out about it so I've chosen not to talk about it much anymore. And with God, I know he cares but there are those days when I wonder too if he thinks I need to stop crying so much:))

  6. AnonymousJune 19, 2010

    I completely agree-- you are becoming stronger. I can see it. I know this week is really hard for you but I think you are handling it like a champ. Please pat yourself on the back!

    Wishing you well,

  7. AnonymousJune 19, 2010

    You go girl! I'm very proud of your stand and accomplishments.

  8. God is so powerful. Your awareness is awesome right at this moment. I believe in you and know that you will stay strong.

    I am happy you are feeling better. Keeping you in my prayers.

  9. So thankful He never tires...cause I talk to Him a lot!

  10. Thanks for sharing this. It's such a great reminder!

  11. thank God He never tires of us...I complain and whine too much and sometimes I wonder if He'll turn away....but He never does. Stay strong JBR...you inspire me...your journey...your fight...inspires....