"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010


This is a reassuring post.

There is a section in this blurb below taken from the internet that I highlighted that sticks out to me and makes so much sense personally. I truly believe this is what happened to me. I have been living with a heaviness of sadness and depression most of my life.

Unfortunately, for most of us our emotional pain started way before we could comprehend what was happening to us. We just lived with what the symptoms produced from the pain, i.e. shame, guilt, condemnation and did our best to carry on with life. We took other avenues in life, some not healthy, that were not originally intended for us to take to cope with the pain.

We all used different techniques to survive to suppress and temporary ease the pain. We became creative in our ways in our own minds (as for me) how to block out the pain during and after. How to stuff the agony. Eventually our hurting heart became a part of us. We accepted it. We shut down our feelings. All the while deep down knowing something was still wrong and still very painful.

As we became older, we grew seemingly outward. We aged. Our depressed heart unfortunately of pain remained at the age it was hurt so long ago. It never caught up to our outward growth.

But that was NOT God's intention. God intends for us to live with a heart that is full of life and joy. We can have our heart back to its original state! Amen! I believe that. I am on the way to receiving back what was stolen from me. But first until we realize that there is a problem and seek help, the emotional pain will remain.

Does getting out of bed seem to be harder each day? Is visiting with friends a challenge? No matter how much you try, do you feel "stuck"? You're not alone. Millions of people suffer from depression, including Christians. Feeling weighed down by stress is normal, but God designed your heart to rebound from such stress. Sometimes, though, you're pressed down for so long that your heart becomes depressed, unable to bounce back without intervention. At this point, you need to seek help from friends, Christian counselors and you may need to use medication. The best help, however, is from the One who knows your pain, cares deeply for you, and is able to heal. His help is always free and always available.

The Bible has many examples of God's people who were depressed. You can follow their example by crying out to God, by remembering His faithfulness, and by putting your hope in Him. In your darkest hour, He won't abandon you. He's beside you, even when you can't feel Him. Ask Him to remind you of His presence when the loneliness seems unbearable. He will reassure you − maybe through His Word or maybe through a friend.

.................................................................................................................................................... I Got The Joy!


  1. JBR...one last note before I leave town. This is a good blog. You are coming out from a heavy past, and there is lots to dig and sift through, and the depression part is very real. BUT... the best thing about the above is the acknowledgement that He is the great healer... God is your creator, and He is also the one who is guiding you and freeing you. He never will leave, and we can stand on the promises He's given us. I am so encouraged by your personal journey. I think if you read back to the start, you progress would give you renewed hope. Keep going JBR... you're a blessing to me and to so many others.

    Remember...(as my dad used to say)...'for every look around us, the last look should be to Jesus'...

    Love & Hugs... 'see' you when I get back!


  2. This is so true!!! I remember when God really began working in my heart. No, when I allowed God access to my heart for healing. I got a picture in my mind. Remember the movie the Grinch - how he did not love because his heart was too small - how at the end it grew???? I believe my little girl heart was stunted - and God was enlarging it. No matter what age we are, we are still all the previous ages inside. We can incorporate them, or get stuck in them.

    Jesus came to heal the brokenhearted!!! In every sense of the word!!!!

    Praise God!!!

    Thank you JBR for sharing your journey, your precious heart with us!!

  3. AnonymousJune 30, 2010

    JBR, I think your heart is in the process of healing from depression. You are getting stronger every day-- it's clear from what you write. You certainly have been through a lot in your life but you are coming out of it on the other side. It's great!

    Wishing you well,

  4. Sweetie what a great revelation.  You never cease to amaze me what is being shown you.

  5. it is a process...like you say at the young age we suppress much...much of that has to come out...for true healing and maturity to happen...

  6. I never thought of it like that, but it does make sense. A depressed heart. This is a very good post. Thank you for sharing with us today.

  7. Blessings and prayers,

  8. What an awful thing to have! I'm glad you shared about this. God bless JBR!

  9. Your discoveries are inspiring and wonderful lessons. Keep sharing and growing strong.

    God Bless you.

  10. It is so wonderful to see how much you've grown. Every day you are getting stronger as you walk with the Lord. The highlighted text really does make sense.

  11. What a revelation! And you are doing all of these things... and HE is changing these things in YOU!

    I can feel a shift in myself as well. God has been working in my life a lot lately and it has been all for the good, even though it is painful.

  12. Amen, JBR. Reaching out is so important, we see David reaching out to God in the midst of his anguish so many times in the Psalms.

    And there is nothing to be ashamed about in reaching out for help to deal with depression, I delayed doing so for four months, but am indebted to those who helped me once I did.

  13. You continue to grow and bloom. I love you.

  14. Believing with you for complete deliverance and restoration of all that was stolen from you. He paid the price for our wholeness and praise Him for His Mercy and Grace that ministers healing to every where we hurt!

    Sweet Blessings!

  15. Dear JBR, quickly passing by and give u a hug before I am off again; This too shall pass, remember the JBR yoiu were when I contected you first; See the JBR which you are NOW; You have done an incredible job and can be proud of yoruself. Yeah, downs are still part of pour lifes yet I believe in YOU; Love from my heart to yours.

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