"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Friday, June 18, 2010


Thank you all for your prayers!

Well, I am still alive.

Everyone is here now. We ate out last night.

I do notice one thing that is new with me..... my brother frustrates me something terribly now. He is notorious for changing things up on me as a joke. This infuriates me now.

I guess because since I have been on my journey and have become more real and deep, I do not care for what he thinks is funny to him is totally freaking me out. I used to not care. But then again, I used to be so very surface. It hurts my brain at times now to talk to someone on this surface level once again, if you can believe that.

Like clockwork all we have talked about since there arrival has been, "do you remember this place here, and do your remember that place there." BORING. The same ole same ole every year. That just shows you the shallowness of who he is and what I was.

Anyway, one good thing thus far, he set up my Router for my computer. Now I am wireless! Yippee!!

We will tackle mum today. When I got home last night from t. they were already over at her place. She had him working and fixing stuff already. She does not wait. We have to go again today so my brother can finish off the other chores she has planned for him.

This will be a long few days I am afraid. Cannot wait until it is over!!! I am already exhausted, have a headache to begin with. There is a certain amount of oppression my brother brings with him too. I sense that strongly. There has been a lot of depression in my family, my father especially was very severely depressed as my older brother. Runs in the family. But, it can stop here with me!

They plan on leaving Sunday. But, like last year when my mum insisted they go to church, they have already said to me that they do not plan on going this time. Well, we will see. My mum is so good with her guilt trips. But, she may lose this one, this time. So, this will be an interesting battle to witness and who will win.

I am putting on a double portion of the full armor of God for mum's visit today. We are heading out early to her place, as that is "what" she has demanded. Yes, I say "demanded."

All these words now have different meanings for me. I am just now a 'tag-along' (which is fine) and am not taking these words to heart like I once did. This is my brothers show right now. He is the one being targeted for having to do "things" for her when she wants. I am sure I will get my jabs once I am there, no doubt.

So, even though I do know what to expect, I do not. In lieu of the unexpected, Joyce Meyer shares a good devotional below on "Offer Him Our All:"

"I appeal to you therefore, brethren, and beg of you in view of [all] the mercies of God, to make a decisive dedication of your bodies [presenting all your members and faculties] as a living sacrifice, holy (devoted, consecrated) and well pleasing to God."— Romans 12:1

In order to obey the verse for today, we have to choose to give the Lord our “members and faculties.” In other words, we offer Him our bodies, minds, abilities, and emotions. We must be careful not to let the devil use our minds. The human mind is his favorite battleground and he will fire thoughts at us all day long, thoughts that will drown out the voice of God if we choose to listen to them. The thoughts the devil sends us are usually sly, subtle, and deceptive so we will find them easy to believe. He lies and accuses and tells us anything he can think of to steal our joy, rob our peace, and make us feel ashamed, guilty, and unworthy. He fills our minds with ungodly thoughts about other people. We cannot stop him from sending thoughts our way, but we can resist them in the power of Christ. Then we can deliberately turn our thoughts toward God and the things He speaks to us.

To be honest, there are days when I have to cast down a dozen thoughts just in the time it takes to put on my makeup! But, thank God, I know how to do it. You can do it, too. Think of it this way: two voices are competing for your attention. You can focus on one or the other. Choose to hear the voice of God and to think about the things He says, not the things the enemy says. When we fill our thoughts with right things, the wrong ones have no room to enter.

.................................................................................................................................................... I Got The Joy!


  1. AnonymousJune 18, 2010

    JBR you sound strong. I've watched your throughout most your path to freedom and see how strong you've become. This is encouragement to many of us our there. The battles you've gone through to build up your faith and beliefs is an inspiration to me. Thanks.

  2. AnonymousJune 18, 2010

    I'm proud of you JBR. May Gods grace continue to hover over you these next few days. May you feel his ever increasing presence and may your heart mind and body be protected from the attack of the evil one. You're really real and special. God Bless.

  3. hope your days fly by and that they are greater than you expect...perhaps even a small miracle...

  4. I like when you say that 'things can stop here with me' (you). This is so true!! You don't need to follow the steps you don't want to. You can walk your own path and create the one that you like for you :-) ... (even with the hard days in it - I understand ...) ((don't fear things ahead dear one ...)) blessings.

  5. Sweetie praying for you. I concur with the other comments. You are special. Bless you sweetie.

  6. I invite you to follow my blog as I do yours.

  7. May God continue to lead you where He wants you to be. So grateful for His Armor. Your faith is your victory JBR! Glory to God!

  8. AnonymousJune 18, 2010

    Praying for you. That God would fill you with a continuous stream of Joy!!!
    So that the accusations would just fall off of you like they hit a wall.

    Yaay! You are wireless...


  9. JBR, you are awesome. I am keeping you in my prayers. All things are possibe with God.

  10. Love your illustration today. Be strong, and watch your brother be the weak one. you have dealt with what has happened and he hasn't. Go JBR!!!!

  11. May the Lord give you a double portion of His grace and glory to go with your double armor....

  12. AnonymousJune 18, 2010

    Praying for you.Love how you channged your blog. Verynice. Your doing great. He's got you inhis care.

  13. AnonymousJune 18, 2010

    JBR, I'm really impressed at how you are dealing with having your brother over. It takes a lot of strength to do what you are doing. You are an inspiration.

    Wishing you well,

  14. When we fill our thoughts with right things, the wrong ones have no room to enter.

    amen amen amen..Was going to copy the entire paragraph because that was SO right on girl!! I can't tell you how many times in JUST a few minutes while doing whatever, I would have to fill my thoughts with what is true, right, pure, holy, etc. Phil.4:8..because the attacks was arrow upon arrow on my brain..Been reading a few of your entries sweet sis with what has been going on. Wanted to let you know that even though I didn't comment during this week, with each new post I saw that you had up, I would be praying for you. ((hugs))