"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Monday, June 21, 2010


I called in sick today. I was sick as a dog.

Most of the morning I was throwing up and my throat was on fire. By the afternoon I was almost 100% back to normal. Symptoms gone.

I have noticed on occasion during my journey when I am under a lot of stress my body tends to react physically. It is like all these toxins from this past weekend with my brother built up and I had to release them.

Recovery truly can be exhausting, there is no doubt about that. Only God's healing touch and power can release the poisons from within and replace it with the inner healing of Christ.

God is not interested in how I look on the outside, but is interested in healing the deep core of my being where my pain is stored inside:

"I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power
through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith."
Ephesians 3:16

Sometimes recovery is exhausting. Sometimes we feel like a raw nerve all the way down to the core of our being. You can't touch anything without causing pain. In times like this we see clearly that our healing must be from the inside out. Nothing superficial will be of any consequence. We need our 'inner being', our 'heart', to experience God's healing power.

It is clear from this text that God understands where our healing must take place. The Spirit seeks to strengthen us in our 'inner being'. Christ seeks to dwell in our 'hearts'. God is not interested in appearances. God is not interested in performances. It is not God's plan for us to 'look good'. God's work will be deeper and necessarily more painful than this. The transformation we need will take place at the core of our being.

This may seem impossibly difficult to us. But it is not impossible for God. It is out of 'his glorious riches' that God can strengthen us. God is not helpless in the face of our brokenness. God is a resource-full God.

I have worked hard to look good on the outside, Lord.
But, it has done no good.
It hasn't worked.
I am not what I appear to be.
I need to heal from the inside.
Only you can do that, Lord.
Come Holy Spirit, to my inner being.
Come Christ, dwell in my heart.
Heal and strengthen me in the depths of my person.
Out of your riches, strengthen me.

Copyright Dale and Juanita Ryan

.................................................................................................................................................... I Got The Joy!


  1. Recovery is the hardest thing you will ever do in your life time. You are doing a remarkable job.

  2. when we don't scream our bodies will....glad you're feeling better.

  3. I'm sorry you weren't feeling very well this morning, but I'm glad you're better now. I agree-- emotional stress can certainly put stress on your body. Stay strong!

    Wishing you well,

  4. JBR Looks like you had your own Deepak Chopra the truly natural way. Those emotional traumas can place a negative energy stress on one or several of our organs and glands. Glad your feeling better to. God Bless.

  5. Glad you are feeling better.

  6. Isn't it amazing how the body can recover that quick? We are God's creation, no doubt.


  7. Stress can have terrible effects on our bodies. The good news is that you healed quickly!

  8. When we keep things stuffed inside (and many of us don't even realize we are stuffing because it is something we have done for so long and without thinking)...it can make us sick...eventually one way or another it comes out. Stuffed emotions can make us literally sick. I am glad that you stayed home and took care of yourself...that is all part of recovery. I hope tomorrow dawns a new day of sunshine for you. Keep being good to yourself! XX

  9. I am so sorry your were physically ill, today. I know what you mean...sometimes my body can't take it anymore...and revolts against the emotional stress. I am praying for you. Hang in there!

  10. Hi Just Be Real

    I hope you remember me - I blogged last year and have just started again.

    I know how the physical and mental work together - stuff like that has happened in my life too.

    I hope you continue your journey to recovery.


  11. Sweet JBR~

    I am experiencing stress coming out physically as well today. Lots of things going on here with our daughter and in-laws all moving in at the end of August and it's coming out in migraines and back spasms. EEEKK! lol

    It is so awesome that you have picked this song to post. Our choir just sang this yesterday. I just wanted to get on my knees and lift my hands to God, however if I did, I would have knocked over the microphone that was standing in front of me! God knew the feelings of my heart anyway!

    Blessings, precious one~

  12. So sorry to hear you weren't well, but sometimes it's a good thing. It can often be the thing that slows us down, makes us aware of the wrongness in our lives or simply allows us the time to heal...not just physically.

    Many hugs to you

  13. exhausting, yes! but oh so rewarding!

  14. Dear JBR, I hope you are doing better. Today I have found a internet cafe and are able to visit my bloggie friends. Maybe you like to check via google map if you find Avallon in France; There I have given a candle for your wellbeing. I knoz we have different faith yet I do think of youy often and know you are hqving a hard time. I hope that the good vibes and wishes. that my asking your God for help for you. will give you some strength.
    Love qnd hugs to you

  15. AnonymousJune 22, 2010

    I've suffered with exhaustion from mentally thinking over things that I shoudl of left a lone. You can develop in your brain a track that is hard to get undone with thinking the same thing over and over again. Feel better.

  16. stuck-in-the-middleJune 22, 2010

    JBR SORRY your sick! Please take care of yourself your special. Hang in there.

  17. I hope you are feeling better physically and mentally today. I am sending prayers for and to you.
    That exp. you had reminds me so much of my trip to Atlanta in March. Instead, I started drinking again to numb the pain. The problem is, the problem in our inner core and brain is still there! Heal us Lord Jesus from the inside out!
    love, janie

  18. I am very glad your feeling better. I read down your posts and it sounds like stress had taken a hold of you. I am glad your better and maybe you should rest the next couple of days.

  19. Hi jbr, I'm sorry you were so sick and exhausted. I think you are right though that doing all this work and dealing with sll the emotions can take it's physical toll on us. Sounds like you are healing well in so many ways. Wishing you well :)

  20. I hope you are feeling better today. I think you are right, the what happens internally can manifest physically.


  21. I, too, have been physically ill after an intense, emotional experience. I forget, sometimes, just how connected mind, spirit and body really are. At least here on earth. So glad you are feeling better. Hugs.

  22. real beauty will flow from the inside...no matter how much we try to clean the outsde of the cup...and we cant clean inside without Him. hope you are feeling better today...

  23. You are right on JBR... we need to heal from the inside out! I think you're doing great, you are gaining new insights about yourself and your past probably daily, and you are willing to go toe to toe in dealing with it all. Don't be disappointed when your body reacts with physical symptoms. We are 'fearfully and wonderfully made', and our body and minds all connect... God is interested in the 'whole batch'... and HE is the great physician!:)


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  25. BR,
    Your one amazing lady. We are on similar paths and i concur that healing is exhausting but oh so exhilarating when we, with Jesus break through that next passage.. your doing great hugs xxx

    I deleted the original as I hadn't found the music I felt led to for you but have now so be blessed.

  26. I believe extreme stress can manifest in so many symptoms. I'm glad you're feeling better JBR! Take care! God bless.

  27. Hi my sister in Christ,

    I love the prayer poem you place at the bottom. I saved it to my words file with the copyright of the people who wrote it. I don't think I use it in blog, but it's more for me to pray. I have to pray about being healed from the inside too. I've spent so much time worried about my make - up and my clothes. I mean I do have faith and try to draw closer to Jesus, but I need to focus more on the inside! I do notice like you said that when my insides are healing, I am raw! It's like anything said the wrong way hurts like a thousand tiny swords! However, I feel better later when I have learned the inner spiritual truth that I needed to learn. My diocese is having the monthly healing mass the second week in July and I am going to pray for inner healing when I go up to have hands laid on me! Thank you for reminding me to work on the inside. Lately, I've been so caught up with working out at the gym, it's crazy!

    Hugs and blessings,

  28. That's a lovely prayer. Many a times we forget the exterior's not important to God, but moreso to Man... We seem to spend more on that than the interior of who we are.

    Get well and strong.