Daddy, I want so much to run and hide again!
The intensity of the enemy is ever so strong, and I wonder if I can hold on. I do NOT want to quit and give up!
I know I am at probably one of the most critical stages of my journey now. Unfortunately this stage could last for months. Nevertheless, months, days hate to say years, I am in my journey for the long run. But, it is ever so painful and tiresome.
Even at my lowest low, the most direct way to open myself up to God is through prayer. Along with prayer strongholds can be broken and the enemy defeated.
Even though I am meeting up with tremendous resistance, I know it is because of the certainty I am getting closer to my destination of freedom!
I am truly thankful for the presence of the Holy Spirit in my life. Truly a glorious feeling at times. Something I would never want to lose.
Shekinah Glory (song/video at top of my page) is my 'start up' song into the Holy Spirit these days. I listen to this daily no matter how I feel and it does not take long for me to go under.
Even though I may not sense Him all the time, I do know He is with me by the evidence of my prayer language (click here) . That is comforting to know, especially during this time.
Your light shines so bright. Since I met you first you have come fo far. It is incredible.
ReplyDelete"Daddy, I want so much to run and hide again!
ReplyDeleteThe intensity of the enemy is ever so strong, and I wonder if I can hold on. I do NOT want to quit and give up!"
this is where I am right now....I shared with someone yesterday that I am hanging on by for dear life with nail bitten finger nails.....Woke up this morning and once again I've started to battle within my mind thoughts...
"Even though I am meeting up with tremendous resistance, I know it is because of the certainty I am getting closer to my destination of freedom! "
This statement has helped me to remember, to stay focused, to continue to NOT to quit...
SIGH.......sigh.
JBR truth rings in the words freedom. The devil doesn't like that at all. He lost the wonderful freedoms when he sinned against God. He knows your time is close to breaking free from his lies. I'm excited for you. Hang in there as hard as it is. You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you. God Bless.
ReplyDeletei am kinda in a funk today...
ReplyDeletemay you have strength for the journey..one step at a time...and trust in the strength, not your own...
Sweetie you hit the nail right on the head. Drawing closer to God and to healing will bring the enemy camp closer. You're much stronger than he. I like that song.
ReplyDelete"Along with prayer strongholds can be broken and the enemy defeated."...amen...you have the victory!
ReplyDeleteYou can do it! Hold on! I'm here supporting you all of the way.
ReplyDeleteWishing you well,
NOS
Your faith inspires me. I also believe in the awesome power of prayer. Blessings and hugs to you, JBR.
ReplyDeleteJBR,
ReplyDeleteFasting helps, too. I don't know why but fasting and prayer is twice as powerful. If you can't fast from food you can still fast from other things. TV, coffee, sweets, books, anything that you like a lot you can give up temporarily for the love of God. Even small fasts are helpful.
I find that I have been using my prayer language more often, too. I used to be afraid to because I didn't know what I was saying but now I'm using it daily and it's helping :) Peace be with you!
This is such an honest and raw post! Thank you for sharing your heart with us! This sentence hit home with me, "Even at my lowest low, the most direct way to open myself up to God is through prayer."
ReplyDeleteSuch power in your words you share. Thanks.
ReplyDeleteGlenda
You encourage my heart, love you.
ReplyDeleteAwesome that you've been graced with the wisdom that the resistance means you're really getting somewhere...and in the right direction! Bravo...the One who has started this good stuff in you will surely complete it. He does all things well:)
ReplyDeleteWith you,
Jennifer
you will persevere just like He did. You will win over the enemy just like He did. You have faith just like He did.
ReplyDeleteIt is hard and nothing anyone says can take that struggle away but your faith will pull you through it