Early on in my recovery my emotions were so raw so very intense and would last for days even weeks. I did not really have to worry about ranting and raving to people in my life though. I had no one. No husband, no close friend, no friends, no one that would understand. So besides ranting once a week to my t. the rest of the time I would rant and rave to God alone. I thank God that He never grew tired of my ranting and raving back then and even now.
Pour out my heart to God is what I certainly did. He heard a lot from me. A lot of anger. Directly towards myself mostly. I was not holding back. A lot of expletives as well. I am brutal when it comes to blaming and shaming myself. Although I have gotten better, as I see that what had happened to me as a child was NOT my fault. That I was an innocent participant.
God got an earful when I would even spew my anger towards Him. He saw, but certainly was not surprised by, a lot of realness coming from deep within me. I believe that is what God appreciates in us. The transparency. He can work with people who are transparent before Him.
God thank you that You never wear out!
"The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom." Isaiah 40:28
There are times during our struggle to heal when our emotions become intense and stay intense for what seems like a very long time. We feel like we rant and rave and weep for hour after hour, day after day. And we worry that the people in our lives who love and support us will grow tired and weary. Will we wear them out? Will they grow tired of the journey?
In those times when we fear the limits of those who love us, we need to remind ourselves that the Everlasting God does not grow tired or weary. We can pour our heart out to God over and over again. We can rage and weep. God listens without hurry or exhaustion. God will not tire of us.
And God understands. Beyond what we can understand or fathom, God sees and knows and understands.
We need to keep talking to the people who support us, but with an appreciation for their limits and boundaries. We also need to talk to God. We can speak our heart freely and fully to our Creator every day, every hour. God will not tire of us.
It sounds silly when I say it, Lord.
but sometimes I worry that I will wear you out.
Or bore you.
But you are Everlasting God.
Creator of the ends of the earth.
You do not grow weary.
Your understanding cannot be fathomed.
You understand.
You do not tire of me.
Thank you.
Amen.
Copyright Dale and Juanita Ryan
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Isn't that the truth! So thankful that we don't have to perform for Him....that He isn't at all about appearances. And such a relief that He doesn't try to play or manipulate us. He is so trustworthy it levels me! How un-doing to be loved by One like this....really, deeply, thoroughly loved. Sort of takes my breath away and frees me to breathe slower and deeper all at the same time:)
ReplyDeleteSO grateful for the shepherd of your journey, too, JBR. It's gonna be SO okay.
-Jennifer
JBR I agree with you in being honest before the Lord. After all he knows what you're going to say and do beforehand. Refreshing. Have a great 4th of July.
ReplyDeleteAMEN...Just what I needed, today!
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andrea
Sweetie wishing you nothing but happiness. Hapy 4th.
ReplyDeleteThis post was such a blessing and so very needed for today!!! You are so right and I had one of those moments yesterday when I was ranting in my car. Sometimes, I do worry that I go to far in the things that I say to God, especially in anger, but I am just trying to be real and I feel like if I don't get it out to him then how can I really voice the help that I need? I just know that if we keep going down the path in faith for the journey that we are on that things will get better. Again thanks for posting this and for the bravery to Just Be Real about what you are going through. You are such a HUGE blessing to me and I am sure to many others!!! :o)
ReplyDeleteI definitely think that people need someone to listen to them. I'm glad you've found what works for you.
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JBR, what a timely post? I too am glad that God never tires of us. His love is larger than life. You inspire me so much.
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Blessings, and have a good fourth of July.
Swell post. I can relate as well. Yelling at my God. Telling him how unpleased I'd been with my problems. Its good to be honest and real as you say.
ReplyDeleteAMEN TO THIS!!!!
ReplyDeleteYes, thanks be to God for His faithfulness and endurance. And so grateful that absolutely nothings can separate us from His love.
ReplyDeleteThere are times when I need to be a "tattle-tale" to my Father God and just pour out my hurts and offenses. He really does care!
ReplyDeleteHello my sister in Christ,
ReplyDeleteHow are you this loving evening? You pick out such beautiful prayer poems that go with your postings. Where do you find them? You know when it comes to the serious stuff I always rant and rave to God. I know He is the only one I can turn to that won't think that I am crazy! Like you said, He understands even more than we can fathom.
Great post
Hugs with blessings,
Amanda
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i i,agine he looks forward to it like his favorite show...nice post jbr...hope you have a wonderful weekend!
ReplyDeleteAmen, I praise Him for never wearing out.
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