"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010


I had a pretty good day on Monday. Really connecting to the Holy Spirit all day. Then I do not know what happened?

Went to bed. Woke up with terrible disturbing dreams. Something I do not get often or at least remember. I felt such oppression.

All day today I have felt I have been under attack. I felt so far away from God. It is like my emotions did a total 180 from yesterday. Was high one moment then crashed the next.

Besides being attacked physically in my body, the enemy has increased what feels like the intensity in trying to have me believe that "people do not like me" that "I am not worthy." I wish he would just leave me alone on these!! The lies he is trying to implant in my mind about people not liking me are unbelievable and draining. Stuff that just does not make any sense or have any relevance. That is why I know he is confused and is trying to confuse me. He is desperate to use this tactic on me now for some reason and going big time for the kill with doubts and feelings of rejection. Ahhhhhhhhhhh

But, I am pleading the blood of Christ. I know who I am in Him! Blasting Revelation Song in my home as loud as I can before the neighbors call the cops on me and in my car. I am determined to press on and overcome my fears of man's opinions and the lies lies lies that satan throws my way. Amen!


  1. Hi JBR,
    Sending you hugs and support. Lord, I pray you help JBR in this battle.


  2. Nightmares really throw me for a loop. I can be totally fine and then have a bad dream, and it sends me spiraling downwards. I'm sorry that you are feeling far away from God. The negative thoughts about ourselves can do that. I hope that you are feeling better soon. Sending safe hugs your way:)

  3. HI JBR-
    I feel so deeply for anypne who, from abuse memory are often afraid of losing their power. and even worse when giving it awy seems normal. I shiver just writing it.

    May I suggest that when you have bad dreams that you go in to like a day dream state and change the end of the dream so that YOU are the victor, the one in control and with ALL the power. It is very effective and shakes off the scary residue that hangs about otherwise. Sending you love and light and good power.

    Love Gail
    peace and hope.....

  4. I'm sorry today has been harder. But have faith! You had a really good day on Monday and you will have one again. I'm glad you recognize that those negative self-thoughts are lies. Stay strong!

    Wishing you well,

  5. I am pleading with you, my friend! that GOD will thwart the enemies plans against you. I praise HIM, b/c I know HE is greater than the enemy and HE will be victorious!

  6. Amen! Jesus' blood never fails...and the enemy is a liar...you are MORE than liked...you are loved...(((JBR)))

  7. Press on, never give up sis. I love you.

  8. JBR: Be confident in yourself and your faith. The person who worried about people pleasing is disappearing and being replaced by a confident older JBR!

  9. I remember that I had such majoy disturbances and set back as well. Every time I started to feel good! I had to learn that these set backs were "normal" as I am condioned that I do not deserve contentment, not gopd enough to feel fun and joy. Hence the set back returned with increased force! The pattern we lived for so long have such a power and avery strong. Yet over time, they lost its power. Still it returns yet it doesnt hold the power anymore. Keep going, it will get better.

  10. Amen! That enemy of ours is truly active in making any of His child ineffective. I'm glad you're remaining strong with His power and might!!! You go JBR! I could picture his fear hearing every lyric from the Revelation song for he knows his destiny... God bless and take care.

  11. JBR let’s face it, if you are a true child of God, then satanic attacks are going to come and they will come both subtly and openly, sometimes furiously. Satan will not give up on harassing a child of God. This is what he does best. God Bless.

  12. stuck-in-the-middleAugust 11, 2010

    JBR hang in there. Your doing great.

  13. gotcha back..will be in prayer for you today...have had those days and they are not a lot of fun...

  14. Sweetie this is expected of the devil. He roams around seeking whom he can kill and destroy. He senses strength in us and wants to finish us off literally. Call upon the strength of the Lord.

  15. JBR, I believe we all get days when we feel 'a little bit' disconnected ... sending some love you way :-) all will be good tomorrow ... hugs!
    ps: thanks for the comment, of course I do understand! no worries but just between us, I did like the post about surrender really a lot!

  16. Isaiah 54:17.....NO WEAPONS FORMED SHALL PROSPER......

    You are hidden in Him.....You are His prescious one!!


    Sweet Blessings!

  17. Wow. I could have written this. Been under attack for several weeks now. People abandoning me, thinking the worst of me. Making me believe the worst in myself. Believe me, I found great encouragement in reading how you waged warfare right back at the enemy. I need to get off my butt and do that...

  18. The great thing about lies is that
    we don't have to believe them.
    Time for some extra silly silliness.
    Dance on those crazy lies....
    dance all over them:)

  19. There are probably many reasons why he is attacking you. he knows that this stronghold is being broken in your life. And what freedom in God this will be.

    And being aware that this is going on...wow!

    Thinking of you.