"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Tuesday, November 30, 2010


These past couple of weeks it has felt like I have been run over by a steam roller. My spirit was so heavy and battling depression and sadness. Flooding buckets of tears. I am worn out.

In my struggle, the Lord reminded me how close I am to coming out to the other side. I need to continue to trust Him and step out no matter how awful I feel emotionally. That this current trial of pain will not last forever. Although the battle is on, I am assured that God will and has been taking care of me all this time.

In the devotional below, I especially like the line:
"After our tears, our inner sun shines, and rainbows are formed from our pain." Amen!

If there were no rain, fields would become parched and brittle, and many creatures would die. If we could not cry, all our emotions would eventually dry up, too, and soon we would not laugh either. Our tears cleanse us. Our tears heal. They make us whole.

Tears are as important to our growth as rain is to a flower. They help release the pressure of sadness so we can feel better. After a storm, when the sun shines again through the clouds, a brightly colored rainbow appears. After our tears, our inner sun shines, and rainbows are formed from our pain.

How well can I accept my tears as part of my happiness today?

Hazelden Foundation


  1. "After our tears, our inner sun shines, and rainbows are formed from our pain."

    This is beautiful....

    Thanks for sharing.


  2. Sometimes it hard to see beyond our tears and pain. I saw this written somewhere "That no matter how big our hurt is, God is bigger." I hope you find some peace and rest soon. Anxiety and depression are really draining. (((((JBR)))))))

  3. Thanks, JBR. This is an excellent post! I always feel better after a good cry and the thought of our tears forming rainbows made me smile. Hugs to you, my friend. You are right about trials not lasting forever!

  4. I know tears are necessary to life - God made them - right? sandie

  5. That is a good way to think about healing and getting better. I hope you continue to heal and let God do His work.

    Love to you,

  6. There's definitely a lot to be said for a great big bawling session. It's therapeutic, and often relaxes me. Sometimes I need to cry and can't, and that's frustrating. Thanks for sharing JBR, big hugs to you xx

  7. I think you ARE coming out the other side. You are so strong JBR-- I hope you see that. I know that pain is hard to take in the moment and it's hard to care about the rainbows that could come of it, but in moments of rationality we realize that "this too shall pass."

    Wishing you well,

  8. God hears your lamentations. They are perhaps our most sincere form of prayer. May his peace that passes all understanding be yours.

  9. you know for the longest time i struggled with crying...weakness...but so true how cleansing they can be...

  10. you are nearly there ready to break free of all your pain...

  11. JBR what a beautiful devotional and analogy for creating a rainbow out of ones pain. God Bless.

  12. I wish I could see the rainbow through all of this life little madness too. I've been feeling very low and frustrated..

    Beautiful devotion for me to read today!

  13. JBR, I am so sorry that you have been struggling so much this week. Isn't it a precious reminder to know how close to us God is in our pain, even when we feel He is far away? I believe you will come out the other side even stronger and more sure and faithful than you already are.
    Your life is made up of some beautiful rainbows.
    Love Colleen

  14. Tears!Sometimes the only way to get out of our pains.I am not a cryer.But sometimes I do allow myself to let it all flow out of me.A good cry can make you see things clearly sometimes.

    So sad to know you've been struggling hard.But know that you are not alone.I guess most of us do struggle with our lives ,everyday.It helps to know we have people around us who can relate with our own struggles.

    Keep safe,JBR!(hugs)