"You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy, at Your right hand there are pleasures forevermore."
Psalm 16:11
"God comes to our lonely, anxious hearts and whispers our name. God says "I see both the fear you have of closeness and the deep longing you have to belong. I have come to comfort you and to respond to your need. I have been seeking a relationship with you. You belong. You belong to me. You are my child."

Saturday

THE LOVE CHURCH


Went to what I call the Love Church last night. I made reference to this church in a few posts back where I stated that it is difficult for me to worship at this particular church because they do a lot of songs about God's love. But, in that same post I mentioned how the Lord would like for me to step beyond my comfort zone and go, even if I cannot feel His love, but let His Spirit and the Body of Christ minister to me.

My body and mind have been exhausted these past few weeks, and the enemy gave me that excuse to use to get out of going. But, it made me even more determined to go. My Spirit has been so dried. I wanted to be fed. I wanted to be among others praising God, lifting my voice unto Him!

Only thing I have to keep in mind is that I am not a teenager any more. I kind of over did it a bit with jumping around praising. My exhaustion really caught up to me quickly.

And yes love songs were played and sung. I did okay. A few shaky moments, but I gave my anxiety and fears to the Lord.

There was one particular song they sang which was "Sing My Love" by Jesus Culture. They sang this same song the first time I went to the Love Church two months ago. I had no problem singing this song and welcomed it. I have been playing it daily since then (it is the first song on my play list at the bottom of my blog below).

The Spiritual side of my journey to healing is critical. It is the most important part to my freedom. I cannot and would not leave this part out in telling my story.

So, I am glad I went last night. Exhausted and all. Being obedient to the Lord makes all the difference. And in time my endurance and stamina will be replenished and I will be able to last longer.




13 Real Comments:

My Big Secret Blog :) said...

Yay!!! Your growth is making me happy! Cheers! Sleep well!

Colleen said...

I'm so glad you went too JBR. Isn't it amazing how sometimes the things we are most resistant to doing eventually bring us our greatest growth and blessing?

Thinking of you!

WinnyNinny PooPoo said...

JBR:watch out for the mosh pit at church! The Spirit can be very energizing!

Finding Pam said...

I am so glad that you went to the love church. You can worship any way you please. It is so lovley when the Spirit fills you and you can enjoy the singing.

It sounds like you are making great strides in t.

Love you,
Pam

Shadow said...

as they say... fake it till you make it.

Saleslady371 said...

Sing My Love is yours and Jesus' love song! I love it when He gives us a love song. My daughter, in the trial of her life, got David Crowder's "How He Loves Us."

I am clapping my hands in joy for you; you really gave the devil a black eye continuing on when it was hard!

Wanda's Wings said...

Glad you went. Nothing like music to really feel God's love.

Jennifer Richardson said...

I love love:)
Scares me, but I love it.
Bravo for throwing yourself
headlong into it.
Well done, braveheart:)
-Jen

NOS said...

Good for you for trying something new!

Wishing you well,
NOS

Tabitha Bird said...

Good for you. Glad you got something out of it :)

Colleen said...

It is the spiritual side of my journey which has helped me the most. As you know. God bless! ((((JBR))))

Chatty Crone said...

I am happy for you! sandie

Dena E's Blog said...

What a blessing from Our Sweet Savior Sis...
Thanks for sharing the Holy Spirits awesome work within you..
May His light continue to shine in and through you !!!
Hugs Dena