"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011


Even though I have battled depression and sadness most my life, some days are worse than others. Valentine's Day did not help yesterday at all. When someone is struggling with low self-worth and acceptance as I am, to have this holiday roll around can be extremely difficult. Seeing some of the women at my workplace receive flowers from their husbands or boyfriends can be hard to watch and smile and say, "oh how lovey." "He must really love you?" And sure there are those who have been married a long time and their husbands do not even think to send a card to their wives. I am sure that stings terribly as well.

Although I continue to grow in strength with who I am in Christ, it still cuts very deep knowing I really do not have "that someone" to love me.


  1. Sweet JBR I'm sorry for your pain. You know I care about you. May God provide you with just what you need to have a fullfilling life. God Bless.


  3. Praying for God to meet those needs in your life sweety. I love you bunches.

  4. no worhds are going to take away the pain of emptiness. So I'm not even goning to attempt to say anything profound. Just here with you at thies time.

  5. Ah sweetie...this reminds me of Candy Grams you used to get in high school. The most popular people get the most. It can be like a popularity contest. Well, what I did was by myself 6 candy grams and everyone thought I was cool. LOL....just thought a good laugh might help cheer you up.

  6. Hope your weekend was a blessed one.

    HUGS to you dear!

    B xx

  7. I think I know how you feel. Valentine's Day sucks. I think it's meant to make people feel bad about themselves. I'm sorry things were so hard yesterday.

    Wishing you well,

  8. ((JBR)))

    ugh, yeah this holiday was hard for many...

  9. JBR: cynical me always wonders how many women order their own flowers to be delivered. :) Hang in there, it's just a holiday the card company's made up!!!

  10. I hope you are feeling better today. I'm thinking of you...

  11. Ha Ha. Ninnypoopoo said it best. Hang in there JBR.

  12. JBR,
    You do have a special someone who loves you more than anything else for He gave up His life just for you! If you were the only person here on earth He still would have given up His throne to come here to die for you! You are dearly loved and very, very precious to Him. No, you cannot see Him right now but He is your knight in shining armour and He will never ever let you down.
    The only true love is His love for all other love fails. There are holes in it and it will hurt you for that is human love and we are failures. God, He loves with agape love and this is true, pure never ending love.

    Pooh on flowers and chocolate for that is just things!
    Praying for you JBR!!

  13. Big hugs, JBR. I heard someone else refer to yesterday as, "Single Awareness," day- so you are not alone in your feelings! I can relate when it comes to Mother's Day, as my mom is no longer with us... Sending you love.

  14. "...loves you with an everlasting love...."

  15. My Jesus is your gift and it lasts FOREVER AND EVER! the flowers and trees and birds and all the things you love is your valentines gifs fromy My Jeusu to you EVERYDAY!
    when he is ready he will send you the man he approves of otherwise you dont need one till then.

  16. It is difficult but your sensitivity to others is so beautiful. Your words touch hearts and that is a great gift to all of us who visit your posts.

  17. Oh my goosh, I felt the exact same way yesterday. It's a really hard holiday for me too.. but esp. this year. It's been a really roungh week. One of those that 'almost' maskes me just want to go HOME!! If I still had one back in Nebraska.

    Heres a BIG HUG for you my friend!!! I'm so glad it's the 15th and spring is almost here!!!

    Love you,
    Coreen xoxoxo

  18. Cards fade over time and flowers die but God's Word to you will never fade and His Love for you will never die. I am praying for you, my friend.

  19. (((JBR)) This is one of the reasons why this holiday is over rated...and why lots of people have a hard time on this day. XX

  20. :( JBR, the blog world & more importantly, God loves you! Happy Valentine's.

  21. much, much, much loved
    you are:)