"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Friday, September 30, 2011


I am finding it is becoming more difficult now to gather my thoughts together and blog about what I am going through emotionally.

Finding this excerpt from Sarah Young's devotional Jesus Calling probably sums it up best what was discussed in t. yesterday and what I need to focus on:

"Much, much stress results from your wanting to make things happen before their times have come. One of the main ways I assert My sovereignty is in the timing of events. If you want to stay close to Me and do things My way, ask Me to show you the path forward moment by moment. Instead of dashing headlong toward your goal, let Me set the pace. Slow down, and enjoy the journey in My Presence."

I get too frustrated and impatient with wanting my healing process to speed up. Pushing the little one to "hurry up and change." Which in turn frustrates and hampers her from desiring to get well. To come out of hiding.

I envision my little one with her arms crossed, an angry pout on her face saying, "I ain't movin' until I am ready."

My t. brought it to my attention, that my little one needs to go at her own pace. There is a lot of pain that still need to be worked on.

Big JBR needs to lay off of her, step back, relax and let God minister and reveal to her what she needs. Just them two. The little one needs to learn "How to just be where she is at presently," and not compete.


  1. Amen. Just what I need to hear today. Thanks for sharing. C

  2. JBR glad to have you back. Your long absences concern me. But I am learning you need your space. Your session seemed to reveal some important facts. Your moods may go up and down, you may burst into tears, you may snap at family members. It's all part of trying to cope with the traumatic ordeal that you've been through. Don't let anyone rush your emotional recovery - you can and will work it through at your own pace as you say. God Bless.

  3. I'm with ya, but so much easier said than done!

    You're doing great work.

  4. i hear you..and sounds like sound wisdom...take your time...

  5. So true. I know God wanted me to read that. Thank you. :)

  6. This post really spoke to my heart, JBR...it was a confirmation of something I already knew...but was struggling with accepting....

  7. Hi sweet girl,
    It is hard to wait but just like the seasons, the season of complete healing will come. You are changing so much and you are almost there. Continue to rest in Him.

    Praying often and sending love,

  8. I hear ya sweet sister...I'm the kinda of gal who wants everything yesterday. Sooooo not God's plan. We all need to slow down so we can hear the voice of God clearly.

    Love the read...I so needed to be reminded today.

    God bless ya and have a fantastic weekend! :o)

  9. It is never easy when things move slow and we wanted it yesterday! God's time is never easy but He is in control and loves you.

  10. just remember we are here for the time we are and everything is run on God's time not ours.Big Time Hug.


  12. It's good to hear from you, JBR :) These are wise words! We live in a rush, rush, world and like to see things happen right away but God moves more slowly and works more gently so we won't be overwhelmed. I know it may sound weird but can you imagine if God showed us everything about ourselves all at once? It might cause more harm to our souls and we would probably short circuit and go haywire ;)

    God bless you, my friend. You are in my prayers.

  13. JBR, I'm amazed at the wisdom in your posts. We all need to learn the wisdom of slowing down and waiting on God and enjoying where we are. Thanks for sharing and prayers for you!