"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Saturday, October 01, 2011


Please take the time to view these two super quick videos. The first one is 24 seconds and the second one is 39 seconds.

There is one explicative mentioned in the first video. So I apologize for that. But, I share that guys enthusiasm though!!

I love it!! You will see why as you read below why:

I could be totally at peace with these people on the beach experiencing this awesome power.

Stuff like this has always excited me! I feel the power!

When I really look deep into what I am going through emotionally these days, I certainly can see why I gravitate to this power. It calms me. Especially when I am really hurting!

When I first moved and was forced to live in New York at 12, after my parents divorce, besides finding solace in my la la land fantasies I found peace in trains and planes. Yep you heard me right. Trains (subways, roller coasters) and planes. Trains and planes have always fascinated me.

When we moved to New York, the apartment building we lived in was right near the Long Island Railway. Remembering the first day I set foot at the age of 12 into what was now to become my bedroom of isolation for the next 12 years the first thing that caught my eye was my view from my bedroom window. That was the only thing I remembered that day as I continued to shut down and cope with this traumatic experience of my family being ripped apart.

Having no friends and seeking some kind of diversion from my pain, I would spend hours after school standing over a "walk overpass" where the Long Island train would run under. Taking in the power of the locomotive rushing by under my feet. Hours upon hours. Day by day doing this.

Early on soon after the divorce, when my father was more or less still willing to see me on visits to Florida, he moved close to a small airport after a year or so after the divorce. I would get the thrill of having the air planes take off and fly over his apartment. He was under the take off pattern. I even took old Super 8 footage of the take-offs. Again, hours upon hours I would sit by myself and take in the power of the airplanes. Feeling at peace.

Then, when I eventually moved back to Florida and had to drive to work that passed under a landing strip of a major airport, I would try and time my car to meet up right under the belly of the airliner as it was landing. That was sooooo cool if I timed it right! Some times my car would shake violently from the engines.

Where I work now, running past our building is a commuter train. When I am early to work and if I am out and about during lunch, I again make it appoint to be close by and take in the fast trains that pass.

Believe it or not, I feel more connected with God when stuff like this is experienced. It is the Power! Even though I cannot compare God's mighty power to a jet engine, this for some reason connects me even more. The awesomeness of its power!!

Odd thing though.........is that I do not really care for flying.


Put me by an airport any day and I will be happy.


  1. JBR this post was fascinating to read and view the 2 videos. I don't know if I'd be able to beach along an airport having that turbo come my way. Some how you get comfort from this Only God knows. God Bless.

  2. woo hoo...to stand there and feel that power...what's even better to stand and feel His power. Stay strong JBR....and have a great weekend.

  3. I had seen those videos before and I thought how awesome to actually see the airplane just a few feet over the head! What a thrill that must be!
    I pass by an airport on my way to work and whenever I get closer to the prison, there are airplanes descending one after another and I sort of marvel, too every time. Maybe that feeling of His power through those modes of transportation is His way of comforting you and reminding you of His faithfulness. He is mysterious in His ways after all. Blessings to you sister and may you have a fun weekend!

  4. HI JBR - powerful videos, and a tad scary too given how low the plane came in for a landing over the beach filled with people. Interesting, I have had a fear, irrational fear since I was about five of a plane crashing near me - in fact, my post titled "Over The Fence" is about just that - it is dated - 8/16/08, check it out if you have a moment.
    Love to you

  5. I would have to agree with you that I don't care much for flying either. I'm quite afraid of heights as well as walking over high bridges, etc. My nerves would be crazy and my heart was racing as I read this. I am just happy that you find peace for yourself through this. I do like looking out the window, that is my calming and serene thing for me. Glad you can experience God the same way I experience Him when I am looking at nature.

  6. JBR, many of us who have lived numb many years seeking some sort of adrenaline high to actually FEEL. I guess that is the reason why you can connect easier with yourself and the God of your understanding. Only over the last few months I have realised that living such a high alert live 24/7 is living on high adrenaline all the time. Only something more powerful made me feel alive....Love form my heart to yours.

  7. It is awesome to be able to stand near the power and force of those things and feel it rush through your body. I totally get that.

    We used to live next to the air station where the Blue Angels are based out of, and every Tuesday and Thursday (for several months out of the year) they would practice over our house...the whole thing would shake.

  8. I feel this way about ships and bridges, yet I am not interested in sailing at all. I am awed at the inginuity of man..This comes from God. The things we build are amazing..Recently I drove through a path in a cornfield right up to a wind turbine and stood beneath it and took some pics! It was breathtaking to feel the power of something so much bigger than me! Good post:)
    ~Peace & Blessings In Jesus~

  9. These videos are awesome, JBR! Still, I think I would freak out if a plane was right over my head like this!


  10. I agree Mary, it would totally freak me out.