"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Thursday, October 06, 2011

DEEP REVELATION

Had a deep revelation today. I do not feel to share in detail at this time. I will have to process it more and continue discussing the matter in t.

What I do know "NOW," and can share, is that I have been struggling from this major stronghold that has ruled my life with fear in a particular area for over 40 years.

The revelation today was of "when and where" it began. Starting around same time of my parents began parting and my family was being torn apart when I was around 11. I even remember in high school the first day it began. I could not pin point the connection. Until I saw myself back at the first day of school.

There is tremendous shame involved. Never did or could find a way how to tell anyone. Until briefly sharing with my t. today. Only the surface at this point. The rest to come.....

15 comments:

  1. Well thank you for sharing that much. I am truly happy you were able to receive a revelation, it's always great, in my opinion, to get to the root of a "problem" in order to heal and bring forth new fruits of a sweeter taste :) Looking forward to that post.

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  2. Hang in there, JBR. I know that when realizations like this come about, it can be confusing and hard to accept. I agree with the post from Dr. Kay above...once we figure out the root of it all, healing can surely take place! Ever since I began reading your blog, I was impressed with your determination to dig deep and feel the pain in order to heal. You inspire me to keep going...even when it's hard..when I'm tired and even when the rules keep changing. I am so grateful to you for sharing your journey here on this blog. You are a blessing to me.

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  3. ANY REVELATION IS AN IMPORTANT STEP TO HEALING. THE ULTIMATE A-HA MOMENT. JBR I'M GLAD THAT YOU'VE EXPERIENCED THAT TODAY. THE HEALING THAT WILL FOLLOW CAN ONLY BENEFIT YOUR JOURNEY. WELL DONE BY SWEET.

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  4. JBR you have come a long way. You've recognized so many steps along your way. One step is that you acknowledged the need for your healing. I think its in Matthew 9:10-13 it talks about that. Many of us have lied to ourselves as well as to others about our hurt. We have said, I'm really O.K. or It really doesn't matter that much. To you, I know it does and has. You share. You want to help not only yourself, but others along the way. You demonstrated that sometimes your wound is so painful that you develop a case of amnesia. It hurts so bad. You've not be able to recall voluntarily the event or that time in you life. Until you've talked it out with a counselor. Another step I've noticed is that your posts always try and reflect the cause of your pain. Or on your quest to find the cause with God. However, your pain you feel seems to originate from your own emotional wounds as a child. This to will be resolved in time with God. Your on your way to a much healthier life JBR. God Bless.

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  5. Wow!!!!

    The little bit you can share is extraordinary. Sorry I've missed a few of your posts lately. Been busy. Catching up on my blog reading and seeing right where you're at. You continue to be a encouragement to me and many here.

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  6. A huge step in walking toward freedom in this area of your life. I understand how hard the shame can be. You have courage in sharing even what you have.

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  7. Hi JBR~ Whenever you share any part of your pain with others...it is a good thing. Not only does it help you to heal but it helps others also!!
    Proud of you!!
    Blessings...Chelle

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  8. thaNKS for being so brave in shareing what you do share JBR. Makes a difference your willing to do just that. Your a inspiration. someone I would look uop to .

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  9. Prayers assured. Keep fighting!
    C

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  10. Sharing can be healing, but is sometimes slow. Just keep yourself safe emotionally, ((((JBR)))))

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  11. I am continuing to pray for freedom and for revelation about what happened.

    Hugs,
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  12. keep fighting! one step at a time.

    blessings!

    (((hugs)))

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  13. Breaking through with get you out and I look forward to the day when you are free!

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  14. Whenever you're ready to write it out, your readers will be here. It takes some time to process and digest first, JBR!

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  15. JBR,
    You are amazing, my friend. I just wanted you to know that.

    God thinks so too :)

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