"The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the LORD your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom." Deuteronomy 28:13
Growing up in an alcoholic family, being sexually abused as a child and then the divorce of my parents when I was eleven, I shut down emotionally. Withdrew from reality. Living in my own la-la land to survive. Afraid to even open up my mouth. I would even find myself cowering many times through out my life. Avoiding conflict or even giving my opinion out of fear of rejection. Living a life of fear, criticism, sadness, depression, anger, confusion and hopelessness.
As I continue to heal from my past, I desire to be "the head" and not "the tail." I am someone. I have a voice. Boldly stepping out and not hiding as much.
I am getting healthier emotionally. My Heavenly Daddy's love is slowly making a difference in my life regardless if I feel it or not. Seeking my Daddy's presence and guidance, I am becoming more what He intended me to be.
Me!
One of my most constant confession is: I am nothing I know nothing I have nothing and I can do nothing apart from God...w/out HIM all else is sinking sand....Happy Thursday JBR
ReplyDeleteJBR yes you're becoming! It's exciting and a wonderful privilege to witness this becoming of yours. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteGod is able....I tell myself this everyday.We are overcoming through the blood of the lamb....day by day by day we are becoming what our Heavenly Father intends for us to be...May I decrease and Jesus increase...blessings
ReplyDeleteSo thankful for what we are becoming...God is faithful!
ReplyDeleteawesome post JBR. I needed to read this verse. The head...not the tail. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteAmen! Perfect love casts out all fear.
ReplyDeleteYesterday, you talked about the hind feet...Now...the head...I love reminders like those...Of strength coming from Him because our spiritual battles are His not ours and boy we are truly in trouble if we don't have Him. Glory be to God Who loves us unconditionally. Be strong always JBR in His mighty power! Have a great Thursday!
ReplyDeleteYOUR GROWING SO MUCH JBR. I CAN SEE GOD SMILING.
ReplyDeleteI am so thankful that you are getting healthy emotionally. I can see it in your writing. I am continuing to pray for your complete healing spiritually, emotionally, and physically. God is good to answer our prayers and make you an inspiration for others seeking to heal.
ReplyDeleteHi JBR,
ReplyDeleteYou are becoming exactly who God made you to be. Beautiful. Unique. Child of the Most High King; royalty!! Now that is amazing and available to all who seek Him.
Blessings,
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It's nice to find my way back to your blog JBR! I used to be IssueKnitter (IK) and used to come here a lot more often.
ReplyDeleteI am glad that I read your post. It's a nice reminder that healing and becoming both are processes that are happening. They are not yet finished. Perhaps they will never be.
Take care! *hugs* <3
I can always relate to your posts, my sweet friend. I shut down emotionally as a child too and lived a life of internal suffering like you did.
ReplyDeleteI love reading about the changes in you as you continue to heal. My prayers are with you every day, JBR. I haven't been on the computer very often lately but I've been thinking about you (it's that soft spot :) Sending you a great big hug and asking the Lord to flood you with grace and every blessing imaginable!
It takes time and we might never get to be everything that we want, but each day we move forward and stronger and further away from what hurt us
ReplyDeleteYes you have a voice and I am so happy your are finding it and getting stronger. ((HUGS))
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