"We are often hard on ourselves. When we fall while trying to walk on crippled legs, we scold. Others may demand that we run when we can barely limp. But God knows the truth, he sees our pain and does not reprimand us. He is the skillful surgeon and his “bedside manner” includes compassion and understanding. He carries us when we cannot walk, he teaches us to use crutches when we get strong enough, and he encourages us until the healing is complete."
Copyright 2012 Joan C. Webb
Even though my earthly Dad was an absent Dad, he expected a lot from me at times. Bringing over toxic emotional baggage from his upbringing, although not an excuse, spilled over in his mannerisms to his family.
He would become frustrated if I did not catch on quickly to what he thought was an easy problem to figure out. Criticizing me and shaking his head in disappointment. Leaving an everlasting impression of failure in my little heart. Making me try even more to win his heart and be perfect. Only to find out, it was still not enough. Making me beat up my little girl inside when I could not meet "his" or later on in life, others expectations.
But.....
I do not have to be that way any more!
I am slowly accepting my Heavenly Daddy's unconditional love for me. Still a bit hard.
He is nothing like my earthly Dad. God does not judge, shame or criticize. He is an encourager. Knows my limitations. Only has the best for me. He accepts me just as I am. Willing to work with me. Cleaning up areas of hurt and replacing them with His love.
HI JBR - I, like you am cleaning up hurts. Nice to have a friend doing it with me.
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Gail
peace....
Thankful that my Daddy God is helping me, too. Some wounds are so deep it is surprising. Will continue to let him do surgery so that I can be "free
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Hugs to you,
Tammy
JBR I'm so glad that you're letting you heavenly daddy take the place of your biological father's love. This post warms my heart. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteSometimes it is hard to see our heavenly Father differently from our earthly Father. I'm glad He is so patient with us!
ReplyDeleteWe have to retrain ourselves to not see our Heavenly Father through the filters of our earthly father. Thanks so much for all the encouraging!
ReplyDeleteI've had the same problem as you but God is helping me also. God bless you.
ReplyDeleteYour opening quote is worth reading again and again!
ReplyDeleteSometimes it's hard to separate our earthy father out from our heavenly Father but I can certainly see your journey forward in this. Thinking of you..
ReplyDeleteHi JBR ~ Your quote by Joan Webb is great! Our Heavenly Father really is the best isn't HE?! He's still working on me and cleaning me up too! Have a great day...Chelle
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