What I am discovering since my Spirit is more open to let God in, I have been noticing when I am under the anointing, that is where some of my "deep" healing takes place.
Under the anointing, I find I am more emotionally connected to my feelings then ever. I believe this is due to not being totally in control of myself. . . . . . He is.
That being said, I do not resist as much. Grant it, while in the Spirit, I do find I occasionally fight back and forth in my minds thinking of my past emotional pain. But, I think He brings some of these emotional pains to light, in order for me to face them and to let me know simply, "That He Knows and Cares and He Is With Me As We Work On The Pain Together."
If you have time, please listen to this song. For any of us who struggle with guilt and shame:
I cannot believe I'm this dirty
I'm ashamed to even ask to be clean
'Cause I can't think of anyone less worthy
I have nothing to offer or to bring
I throw myself on Your mercy
I throw myself at Your feet
I throw my filth on the grace
of One who's beauty is beyond me
And I wait
And I wait
I'm not even sure how I got here
Wondered to this darkness from Your light
I still remember walking in the garden with You
Now I'm just stumbling through this night
I throw myself on Your mercy
I throw myself at Your feet
I throw my filth on the grace
of One who's beauty is beyond me
And I wait
And I wait
Chorus:
I wait for Your rain to fall
The waves of Your grace wash over me
I wait for Your rain to fall
Strange how forgiveness comes so easily
When I call Your name
And wait for Your rain
Lord, this desert is killing me
My throat's dry from screaming Your name
I want to come home but the sands of time surround me
The dirt's finally covered my shame
So I throw myself on Your mercy
I throw myself at Your feet
I throw my filth on the grace
of One who's beauty is beyond me
And I wait
Sniff...oh Lord, only You can make me clean!!
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I love how hard He is working with you.
ReplyDeleteJust be Real I think when we are under anointing God does bring up feelings, emotions, thoughts that perhaps under other circumstances we would struggle to face but can do under his healing, loving embrace and in the power of the holy spirit. I experienced this only yesterday myself. I do go for laying on of hands others call it faith healing as part of my journey toward healing. I have found it has helped me to cope in the hard emotional times but also helped to deal with some of the past and even enabled me to face some of it to then start to deal with it. Sometimes you realise through this how really broken you are at the hands of others but it always leaves me with hope. Your song is so apt. Thank you for sharing. Blessings.
ReplyDeleteWaves of grace--what a relief.
ReplyDeleteBless you for sharing.
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