and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!
Sunday, March 31, 2013
I said a couple of months ago when I re-activated this blog that I would not be posting or visiting your blogs as much. I also said that whatever the Holy Spirit placed on my heart to blog about it. No matter if "I" felt it worthwhile or not. I am learning, "it is not about me." But, it is all about Him! So, now I try not to question. But to obey.
Holy Spirit led me to share the following:
What I may say may not seem a big deal to some of you. As you may already know this as a fact. But for those who need reassurance in the area of hopelessness and depression I will go ahead and share a simple truth.
"Nobody really wants to kill themselves, they just want to stop the pain."
Sure there have been many times in my life where I felt extremely hopeless. Having fleeting thoughts of suicide. Having the brief interlude play out in my mind of how I was going to put an end to it all.
I do not take suicide lightly at all. I lost a brother, uncle and a grandfather to suicide.
But, really how many of us really want to actually kill ourselves? We DON'T. We just want the pain to stop. We really do not want to die.
This revelation may not be new to any of you, and then again, this may be the one thing one person needed to read.
Once in a while I still have difficulty fighting thoughts of suicide when I feel pressured or trapped. I have turned as best I can my emotions over to my Heavenly Daddy. Telling Him about my deep hurts and asking Him to comfort me. Not holding anything back. Like I used to.
Now, tears flow so readily with Him and I these days as I share the pain with Him as He continues to heal my broken heart. Something I never did before. I was so disconnected. Feelings were not there or minimized. My heart was severed. Daddy is slowly re-attaching my heart strings.
For those of you who are not at this point or find it very difficult to cope and are contemplating suicide, please, please find professional help. It is very important that you work through these feelings and find the help you need.