I am back. I am still alive.
Something is going on with my emotions.
Nothing out of the ordinary happened with their visit. The usual verbal stabs and what not from the family. But, when they left this morning and I was once again back to myself, depression and saddness came over me like a wild fire. Something I have not felt with sooooo much intensity in such a long time. It was like the enemy pounced on me emotionally. Like I was at a weaken stage. I started crying something awful. Crying out to "Daddy to Help Me" as I was hurting terribly.
Maybe they coming down was a diversion for me for a few days, and I went into survival mode or something. Cutting off feelings??? Then once they left, I came back into reality. Really quickly and painfully. BooM! Did Not Expect That!
OUCH!
Welcome back, Grace :) I hope the visit wasn't too hard on you. Until you mentioned it I didn't know we could temporarily delete our blogs. I'm glad it worked out. God bless!
ReplyDeleteI hope you had a wonderful (and stress free!) visit Grace. Glad to have you back! :)
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Denise
I'm glad you survived and are back. I pray today will be full of refreshing for you as you worship your Daddy God. Bless you!
ReplyDeleteHappy you are back.
ReplyDeleteGlad to see you back - and hope that you're able to take today to rest your mind. Visits can be more stressful than we imagine - praying for you that things shift back to normal soon.
ReplyDeleteOh maybe you cut off your feelings in case they would hurt your feeling so you made a barrier between you and them!
ReplyDeleteI am getting sad here and there again and again.
It's a hard thing. I think I gaining weight too because I've been sad on and off.
I'm glad you're back hun
I'm glad you're back, Grace. I'm sorry about the sudden emotional overload. It may be that you were keeping your feelings hidden during your family's visit and then they reappeared when the visit was over. Take care of yourself, dear. Wishing you peace.
ReplyDeleteHI GRACE - welcome back. Sorry the visit left you sad - try and move beyond it - don't give them anymore power in your life,k?
ReplyDeleteLove Gail
peace.....
I'm so sorry that happened. I think in certain situations we do turn off our emotions. Protect ourselves from being hurt. God is there for you and praying for your contentment in all things.
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ReplyDeleteGlad you are back and certain God will help you sort through the leftovers :) Many blessings!
ReplyDeleteHow does one temporarily delete a blog? Never knew that. I don't even know how to have it "under construction" if I am working on it after it was published. Yes, I am NOT computer savvy with blogger. The enemy is out to destroy your beautiful testimony for HIM. Tears are prayers when the words are too hard or just unable to be voiced. Let HIM lead you gently this coming week. It would appear the enemy is lurking, ready to pounce using past hurt. How precious that we KNOW the Lord is wrapping his loving arms around you and you are safe and loved. You made it back to your friends/blog and that is marvelous. Go slow, gently, loving yourself with every step and holding HIS hand. Your beautiful testimony will continue to shine and the enemy will slink away defeated again. Blessings.
ReplyDeleteWelcome back!!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad the visit was smooth. Praying you will be lifted out of this depression and hurtfulness soon. Remember, let go and let God.
Blessings,
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I'm sorry you're feeling this way, and so suddenly too. Stay strong, JBR. You should be so proud of yourself for coping this weekend. I know that could not have been easy.
ReplyDeleteBe well,
NOS
God is good! I think of I Thess 5:18 In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concering you....as Paul and Silas had sudden attacks from their enemies ...we can learn from their testimony of Praising the LORD at all times! He is mighty and will always lift you up and hold you and keep you from the destructive plans of your enemies....Depression hurts and hold captive ...Jesus brings new life and freedom...May You experience today his freedom given to us on the Cross...Be Bless JBR
ReplyDeleteStop by and say a hello sometime!
http://braveenoughfortruth.blogspot.com/
I t all comes to pass, I hope you'll feel better in no time but I must say, no matter how you're feeling your posts are always interesting reads
ReplyDeleteI would say the family coming to visit brought all the bad memories back into your subconscious with force. I pray you will feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteI sure hope you feel better soon, JBR.
ReplyDeletesometimes visits pull off the scabs
ReplyDeleteand it hurts really bad
but healing can sometimes happen faster
once the barriers are down.
praying that healing has rushed in
with it's balmy presence
and kissed the oppression away.
love and hugs,
Jennifer
Glad your back. Was talking about you just last week..
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